I never really thought about love, I was never the type of person who always wanted to have such a romantic life. I know I know, I read so many books about romance and people assume me as the person for it, but I'm really not, when I was younger, maybe around 15 that's when I chose I'm going to live by myself for the rest of my life and that I do not need anybody, I've been following that for 11 years now. Yes, every now and then I meet a nice guy or a girl at a book store or a coffee shop, but they always want to move so quickly. If I would be in a relationship I'm the type of person who would take it "slow and steady".
My mother died when I was 13, I had to witness her wrists bleeding out and that traumatic moment never left my head. I never understood why she did that ever since a couple of years ago. Five years ago today, my best friend committed suicide. She left me a voicemail right before she did and that absolutely destroyed me. All of the memories ever since we were 8 just disappeared for a few months and it was terrible. I was alone. She was always the one telling me to "get out there" and find someone to love but I never did. Everyone always asks me about my father. I don't like to talk about him. After my mom committed, the only people i had were my best friend and my dad.
Once I turned 15, my father started to touch me in ways I knew weren't right, he sexually assaulted and raped me multiple times for 3 years until I turned 18, and finally, I called the cops and he got arrested and was found guilty for assaulting many other girls in my school. I was at the legal age to live by myself so that's what I did. I moved to Brooklyn with my best friend Reagan. She wanted to move away from upstate new york too so we just lived a couple of blocks away from each other. The day I saw her voicemail I quickly ran to her house. Once I found her laying on the floor just like my mom, my heart broke.
Today marks exactly 5 years since Reagan committed. I'm going to change myself and accept that they're all gone and I need someone new.
Being alone isn't my best option right now.
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the night i met you
RomantikI thought it would be a normal walk in sunset park at night, I was proven wrong. Genevieve (Gen) Hendrix, a normal 26-year-old woman living in Brooklyn, New York. Or at least she thought her life was normal.
