~13 reasons why~

Reason 1

(In this story I will not be using the real names)
Tw:can be triggering(idk just in case) mentioning of death threats.

So hey I'm Madelyn, Maddie Bates. I'm about to tell you the story of my life, or more specifically why it's all fucked up.
I mean hey why would i tell anyone this? I wonder too. If you're in this book, you may be a reason why it's all fucked up so bad. Okay so where should I begin? Oh I know.
When I was in fourth grade my bestfriend and I went to the same school, well it wasn't our first choice actually. But we didn't get any answer from that school so we just thought it was full and just started here, which I'm gonna call Baxter high.
Now me and my bestfriend were very close, I mean we did even use the toilet together all the time, shared foods, we even kissed each other one time. Might seem normal, might not.
We made friends with the popular girls in our class and hanged out with them. It was fun, until my bestfriend got a message...

She was gonna switch schools, yup i was devastated not only because she were going to switch schools, but also because she didn't tell me and kept it a secret. But my mom told me sooner or later and yeah. So when it was her last day we made fun things to remember her, and for her to remember us. Well I don't know how fuckin' long that lasted?
She had left our school and we had a break, but eventually I had to get back to school again...
And there everyone was, happy to see each other. Oh and yeah did I forgot to tell you that, our friends promised to take care of me when she left?
Well we take that for another time.
My bestfriend and I became distant, which wasn't good or fun.
Yk what I'm just gonna call 'bestfriend' "Emma"
Emma eventually saw me once or twice at the bus station or train station but that was it, she always texted me that she couldn't hang out.
Seems normal, she was just busy right? No.
She had replaced me, I was fine with her having other friends of course but I never thought she would replace me that fast?
Everyday I would ask her to hang out, she was busy with her other friends. So I guess that's when I didn't care.
I started hanging out with a new girl in our class and one of my other friends, which was fine.
Now you may think why the fuck would I do the same thing she did? Answer: I didn't.
I never replaced her, I always waited for her to be willing to hang out and catch up or something but she did never ask me.
So I gave up, after a year or something I got a text from her..

She was telling me that "Maddie I never was you're friend you made that up" not so bad right?
Well it went on.. and on... and on..
"I was using you"
"I faked it"
"I don't wanna hang out with you anymore"
"Don't wanna be friends"
Not so bad I left it, I had many other friends.
But then again after some years or something I was with my other friend I'm gonna be calling her "cassie"
We were fighting over text with "Emma"
Over all things like "you look like this *a pic of and old grandma* yeah wtf may you think?
It was until Cassie went home.
Emma texted me continuing fighting and she eventually told me, "kys, nobody would give a fuck"
I just looked shocked, my old bestfriend just told me to kms? I probably blocked her but before I told her wtf, she tried to apologize but I didn't respect that.
Now I barely talk to her because what's been happening.. now over to the "popular girls" who's been fucking me over.

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This is a true story by me,
Go on and hate on me,
Go on and support me,
Either way <3
Have a great day.
Remember that I'm 14 and this is just reason 1.