Promises

Pangatlong Kabanata

Nakakapagtaka dahil nag-announce ang school na wala raw kaming klase kinabukasan which is March 13. Until I woke up on the next weeks, the classes had been postponed again and again hanggang sa umabot na ng April. April is the month which we should be recognized and moving up ceremony sana ng 4th year highschool.

I can clearly remember how COVID 19 changed my life. I started to lose my friends,
the friends I hug pagkakita ko palang sakanila, the friends who are there whenever I cry or laugh, the friends I bond everyday at school. The friends who I am with in everything we do, kabaliwan man o kasiyahan. The friends I treasure the most. I realize how distance affected each one of us especially my friendship with them. Distance destroyed us.

The pandemic is difficult one, I could reminisce how the people panic to buy stocks of groceries like noodles, canned goods, rices, alcohols, facemasks and many more on every supermarkets. I hear from the news how much the doctors and nurses are struggling because of the cases rising everyday. Establishments and schools are closed down for everyone's safety. I knew... if anyone experienced this, would be sad, depressed, and feel alone, right? But we did. Thank God I still have my family beside me, at least I can still find reasons to be happy.

COVID 19 made us strong, even if deep inside we beg the Lord everyday to hope that this pandemic will stop someday. The people on 2020 knew that, because the struggles and challenges faced on that same year taught us lessons.

Nakakalungkot, sa totoo lang. Until 2021, nangyayari ang lahat ng ito except for the panic buying since medyo lumuwag luwag na. People expect that the virus will end on year 2021. But the pandemic didn't left, we all just hope and pray it will end soon...
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Nakaharap ako sa desktop ko at nagiisip ng pwedeng maisasagot dito sa quiz namin sa Computer subject. Hindi ako sanay sapagkat itatype mo kung ano ang sasagot mo, sa essay form pa naman!
Sanay ako sa sinusulat at kapag nagkamali, manghihiram ng correction tape! Pero noon ako si Ms. Correction Tape, ano pa ba? Edi ako palagi hinihiraman ng correction tape!

May levels pa yan:
Mabait Level: "Audrey, pwede pahiram correction tape, please?"
The kailangang pahiramin level: "Audrey, peram correction tape."
The mejo demanding level: "Audrey, correction tape."
The automatic level: "Oy, correction" //may kasama pang kalbit o yugyog//

O diba? Di ko matatakasan ang mga kaklasi ko noon dahil ako ang inaasahan nila sa bawat pagkakamali nila, aba syempre hindi papatalo ang tita mo! Audrey to the rescue!

Anyways, this online learning and modular papers are very new to me and especially to every student. Nasanay kasi kami na sa bawat lessons, quiz, PETAs, and tasks are done physically at school. Kaya at some point, naiintindihan ko ang mga estudyanteng nahihirapan na magaral, but what can we do? We live in this world, edi padeport ka sa Saturn kung ayaw mo na dito! Charot!

Nagstart ako ng online class in my 3rd year as a highschool student, since I told you hindi ako sanay, nagkaroon ako ng two 84s sa dalawang subjects ko noong 1st Quarter.

"Anak..." pinapatahan ako ng mommy ko but I still can't believed I got 84, dalawa pa ha? Bagsak iyon sa school namin.

"Ma, sorry po...b-bagsak a-ako..." my tears shed into my cheeks as I said that to my mom.

"Bumawi ka nalang, anak..." but how can I? The whole school year I will carry this bagsak grades, there is nothing I can do. Even if I have 90+ grades on the next quarters, it will not change the fact na nabagsak at nagfail ako on the first.

I had been carrying that trauma every night, I am questioning myself why? Is it because online class is new to me? Naaawa ako sa sarili ko everytime I think of the days I spent nights sacrificing my sleeps and energy to do all of my tasks just for me to have enough grades. I am stuck on the feeling that I am a failure. I was a failure.

Nainggit ako sa mga kaklase kong with high honors, but I changed my jealousy into an inspiration.

How?
- I told myself next school year, babawi ako. I will not fail, instead I will succeed. No matter what may happen, fail or succeed, I will give my best.

Why?
- Because I wanted to make myself happy, not satisfied. I wanted to become trully happy because I succeed, binigay ko ang best ko eh.

Pagtungtong ko ng Grade 10, my last year in highschool, nagkahiwalay kami ng bestfriend ko. Carlyn and I even got seperated, nung una expect ko classmates kami because we've been classmates for 3 years, since 1st year hanggang 3rd, thus I got sad nung di kami classmates.

But I had fun with my classmates ngayong school year na ito, they were just... fun to be with. Alam mo yun, yung kahit hindi mo sila kaclose as in close, you still have fun whenever you are with them.

If you will ask me right now, kamusta kami ni Sky?
I can't answer that because we barely talk. Maguusap then hindi, maguusap then hindi. I just let the fate do it, I just let tadhana makes us come back to each other again. Kase ganon naman talaga eh...

Then Claude came into the picture, maybe you wonder who is Claude?
He was my boy bestfriend, ang karibal ni Sky. The one who made my life miserable. The one who disrespects my parents. The one who I have a lot of wars to begin with. The toxic one.
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