I think the reason I never tried drugs or getting too drunk was because deep down I know I'll become addicted. I know that if I start being able to feel on a regular basis I will become dependent on being able to feel. It has nothing to do with the addictive nature of the drug itself and nothing to do with the legality of it, but rather I know that if I can finally feel something other than empty I won't be able to go another day without it.
