There are many evil things in life some that are in comics other that are real but some are just evil there is no good and there never was. Lucky that I have a friend to support me and a family that loves me well I am not shore if my brother loves me sometimes. I guess that sometimes I do not like him so we are fare. I never thought I would find myself writing except in my writing class but when you are sitting in a bed in the emergency room anything is fun. I never thought it would be me in the bed I thought maybe it would be my 99 year old and grouchy grandpa but it is me. I guess it is nice to wish something bad on him but technically I did not wish it on him but just thought about it. At first I thought it was not going to be so much but now all it does is haunt me.
It keeps me from making friends but not best friends last year I lost all my hair and all the girls called me bold hair Blair. Then one day at lunch Sam came up to me he was a boy out of my reading class and sat with me and after that I and he are best friends! Well he calls it friends but I think it is a little more than that. He will come to me in the Emergency room and we would play around, sometimes spy on the doctors and I all most forget that I am sick but then my body gets weak and he cares me back and I fall into my dreams on the old stiff mattress. The next morning I woke up by the sun warming my face and the birds sing in trees. My mom sat on the side of my bed and said "gutten morgen" and gave me a kiss on my check.
Then I noticed that I was in my room the bright orange walls and the paints that I had pained were on the wall! I turned to my mom to ask her why I was here and like she could read my mind she told me "don't worry the doctor said it was fine you can stay home for a day and I do not want to have a birthday without my own daughter."
I looked at her in shock, I had forgotten it was her birthday all those days in the hospital I had lost track of what day it was. By the next second I had sung her happy birthday in German! Then out of the corner of my eye I saw my sister's head peck in from the side of the door, she ran in when she saw that I had woke. I felt bad for her that she did not have a sister that could not play with her or do things that other sisters do. Rather than that she had a sister that lad in bed all day, I hated the point that my life was like that but I have to keep fighting.
That afternoon we sat in our den huddling up as the snow hit the windows, we had hot coco that tasted even better after all the medicine I had to take. My sister sat next to me with her little teddy bear that by now was so old that the stuffing was coming out of the rips that looked like pooka dots. I guess that was my motivation just like my sister keep holding on to her teddy bear and did not care how ripped up her teddy bear, I should keep holding on to the life I have. As we sat there I saw my big brother Elie walk in he was to cool to sit with his family, nor did he say hi. I was never that found of my brother he acted like we were not his family when I grow up I will make sure that I am not as rude as him. "Mommy can I have a cookie" my sister said out of blue, mom looked at me and asked if I wanted it but I replied that Rosa could have it. Rosa took the cookie and spilt it in half and gave the other half to her teddy bear. My dad was the first to break the silence that had hit the room he jumped up and said "Now now this is no birthday, let us do something fun I bet Blair would love to move her feet."
I looked over at him and shock my head, signing yes. "Well than I think it is a great weather to play in the snow" said my dad, and before I could say a word my mom said "it is far too cold we will all get sick."
My dad was silent but then jumped to saying "Then jackets it is" and with no further ado we had ran to put jackets on. When we got outside we all looked like a pillow, I had about 6 layers on and I could not even see my sister's head. We walked out with our layers on I was hot and did not feel a bit cold, it felt so good to move my feet and stretch my hands
After about spending the whole day out in the snow we all called it a day, it was time for dinner. My mom had already made warm soup-carrot, my favorite. My sister complained once again, my mom told her that it is her birthday wish that Rosa would have the soup. My sister thinking that my mom really would be sad if she did not eat it, took a spoon full of the soup then jumped up because her mouth was burning! "That is why you wait for the soup to cool down" I replied.
My sister gave me an aggravated look.
After dinner we all got ready for bed I put on my pajamas on, they were so cozy comparted to the ones that I had bine wearing. We ran to the couch and this time I got the best spot on the couch! We all watched the movie that was playing on our old fashion T.V that was black and white.
About three years ago my brother had a party and one of his drunk friends had thrown a bottle at the T.V and the screen cracked (that one was a big nice one). After that my mom and dad did not get a new one but found one on the street and that is the one we have.
The next day I woke up not knowing how I got in the emergency room I must have fallen asleep and then my dad or mom had drove me there.
Then I saw the door knob twit and a nurse came in "would you like to come see your dad."
"He is here?" I asked in shock
"Yes your dad wanted to explain why"
I got up and followed her done the hall, but she did not lead me to the waiting room but lead me to another room.
There I saw my dad laying on an old stiff mattress, his eyes lay shut. I turned around to see the nurse closing the door. My dad opened his eyes and told me to sit next to him, I sat down in shock.
"Blair I drove you last night to the hospital and on the way a car that did not have its lights on crashed into my car you were fine but because of shock, I got a heart attack so I have to stay here to recover. The doctor said by Wednesday I will be out."
Before I could think about what to say to him the nurse came in and told me that my dad needs to rest.
I told him to dream of a world that there was no bad and with that I walked back to my room and through myself on to the bed. I thought about how my life was so bad or that sometime in my family history someone got cursed by some bad, mean witch... No that only happens in movies. I know that someday all these bad things will pay itself back... or I hope it will. You gain you lose and that is how life works. Without all these bad days there would be no good days.
I pulled out a book that lay in the shelf next to me and I read "Brilliant" I had heard that the book was good so I took it and read.
I loved reading but I am not fast. I had spent about the whole day reading the book and I have to say the book is written Brilliant.
About a week pasted and I was getting worse but my dad was back up on his feet and was loud as ever. My medicine had made me tired so I had bine sleeping most of the time.
Three books lay on the night side table next to me two that were half done, the third was my sisters get better book that she made for me it was pink with purple sparkles shaping a heart.
"Mommy can I go in and see her" I heard my sister say from under the door
Than before I heard my mom say that she has to wait my sister burst in!
"Blai, Blai I missed you soooo much are you ok"
My frown turned into a smile there stood Sam, I was so happy I had missed him, I had not seen him in weeks!
"I picked up Sam, I thought that you would like to see him" my mom told me
Sam walked up to me and I was going to cry, not only because of Sam but the reason that my whole family was here and that they have to see me fall. I was at the end of it my body could not lift it self and my mind was raining with thoughts. My sister jumped up on my lap and I felt a grown of my body.
"BELLA get of her" my mom screamed with a cry.
My eyes felt weak and my heart pumped its last powerful pumps. A nurse came running in and told my mom that I have to have blood more blood, with a weak scream I said NO. I did not want no more blood no more medicine, it was my time to go and no one can stop it. My family sat down next to my bed and I saw a tear run down my mom's cheek and it landed on my face, combining with mine and falling down my cheek. I looked at the screen showing my heart rate and it slowly went down. My eyes get heavier and my vision dying away. I saw my family all together crying there cries. My eyes shut and my heart stopped, but there I felt a kiss on my cheek and smiled my last smile.
