Is this a love story?

Not Letting the world in

Mia

After admitting my feelings to Daniel I feel lighter, happier, I feel closer to the person I was before all of the bad stuff happened. I feel like I can be joyful and happy and not feel like there is a dark cloud hovering over my head. That is till I walk past Charles in the garage and my heart still aches. This is how I know I'm not ready to be with Daniel properly as much as I might wish I was ready! He is the best thing to come out of this year, I've never felt this comfortable with anyone, even Charles. I feel like my head is a scrambled mess and I need some time to focus on myself. But how do I say this to Daniel after the other night? Why can't anything ever be simple? I rush out of my hotel room and bang on Max's door till he swings it open "MIA! Seriously! I was coming!" He tells me and a chuckle "I need your advice" He nods and gestures for me to come in "Is this about Daniel, because you really just need to tell each other how you feel" He tells me nonchalantly "I did, yesterday" He looks beyond surprised "REALLY?!" His smile widens to a huge grin "Yeah but I'm not sure if I'm ready for another relationship yet" He nods "I understand, Daniel will as well. You want to be with him when you are ready right?" He checks and I nod "Just let him know that, he will be happy to go at your pace, he is a good guy Mia" He assures me and I feel so much better already "Thank you so much Max, I would be a mess without you" he nods "You would" I give him a light shove "Wanna ride to the circuit?" I ask swinging my keys on my finger.

Saturday at the French Grand Prix and I've never felt more nervous for a qualifying than I do today. We have been on the upper limit of car performance so far this weekend and I know that the team deserves a pole position. We have worked so hard to get ourselves back to the top, where Ferrari belong and I don't want anything to stop us on our way to the title. Points are close between Charles and Carlos and they are both pushing each other but I know as the season progresses I need to make sure it doesn't turn toxic. They aren't the types to have that attitude but when you have the chance to win the world championship friendship flies out of the window! I need to get to the garage for qualifying, FP3 went well and both drivers feel comfortable with the car. I haven't had a moment to speak to Daniel and I know that I can't avoid the topic of our future for much longer. My eyes fixate on my phone seeing messages fly in from Maranello. I'm so absorbed that I don't even notice the person in my path and I smash straight into them. I look up into the familiar eyes of my favourite German "Mia! You need to be more careful!" He scolds me and I know it's because he cares "I'm so sorry Seb! Technology sometimes isn't such a good thing" I say gesturing to my phone as I slip it into my pocket "I don't disagree with you, are you okay?" He asks me gently and I know he will know if I lie "my heads a bit all over the place" he gives me a look and gestures for me to walk with him "is it Daniel?" He asks me which takes me completely by surprise "what? How?" He grins "I see the way he looks at you, just like Charles" he tells me knowingly "well Charles definitely doesn't anymore" Seb scoffs "that boy is still in love with you, he's just made some piss poor decisions" this takes me back slightly "he doesn't Seb, really" I assure him and he shakes his head "he talks to me Mia, he regrets everything" he sees my face fall "I didn't want to talk about him though, I want to ask about Daniel" he is firm with his tone "he told me he is falling in love with me, and it felt so right, till I saw Charles in the garage yesterday and my heart ached for him" Seb nods "you can't move on till you are ready! He is ready because he isn't dealing with anyone else, you have been through too much!" He reminds me and I know he is right "I will talk to him" I say and he shakes his head "not yet, you need space from them both, come stay with me and hanna and the girls! Just a few nights! Clear your head!" He offers and I know he wouldn't ask if he didn't want me there "if you will have me I would love that" he shows me his trademark grin "absolutely Mia, you are like family! Hanna will be happy to see you!" He confirms just as we reach the Ferrari garage "thank you Seb, for everything" he nods "see you after the race" he assures me before he walks back towards Aston Martin.