Arykaiz

Out of my confort zone

So I thought it's necessary to know how Ary looks like so here she is.

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Staying in the middle of my room on the floor with my eyes closed..... such an amazing feeling, for me. My father is at the company and it's Saturday so I have all the house to myself.

I can't sleep. It's 2 p.m. and I can't sleep! I always sleep when I want but not today because I have a feeling something big is going to happen.

You know that feeling when you have goosebumps and you just know that something is going to happen, well that's what I have now. The only thing is that I am curious but also scared in the same time and because of that I can't sleep.

I crawled up from the floor and gone downstairs to get some water. When I entered the kitchen I heard my father's car outside. He's back early. Maybe he forgot something. He quickly came inside panting.

I looked at him confused and stopped what I was doing.
"Woah dad take it easy. Why are you in such a hurry?" I asked giving him the glass of water I prepared for me. He drank it all and then looked back at me with sparkling eyes.

"You won't believe what happened!" He said and motioned me to sit down at the table.

This not looks good. What he wants to do now? When he comes home like this he always has some crazy idea like disappearing for a month in Himalaya or going in Dominican Republic in the next hour. So what can he come up with now?!

"So You know Xander has a cousin who is a good friend of mine and we even have a good partnership with our companies?"
I motioned for him to continue already scared of where this conversation is going.

"Well this friend of mine, Laken, has a son that is your age and guess what, he is going to the same high school as you do!"

HA HA HA!!!....... WHAT?! WHAT THE FUCK?!
Okay stay calm girl it's nothing right? This guy just goes to the same school as me, nothing to worry about. Where does my dad wants to go with this?

"Umm and what does it have to do with me?" I asked hoping he won't say anything too blow minded, but...

"Well remember what the doctor said? That you need to have someone with you even at school. And that you don't have any friends, no offense, then it shouldn't be too bad for him to stay with you."

I remained too shocked to even move. How can he think that. I don't even know the boy and he wants me to stay with him?! I am better alone I can make myself feel better without someone else's help. So NO! I won't accept this. I bet this guy don't want to stay with me either. He must be popular and have a bunch of friends. So yea none of us needs this!

"Nope I'm outta here." I said and raised my hands up in defense before going out of the house for a walk. My father really thinks I will do as he said? Not over my dead body.

"Zi where are you going? Wait please you need to understand you-"

I shut the door and made my way to god knows where. This is just too much. I already feel embarrassed just because my dad thought about this. Okay even if I wanted to be near that boy does anyone thought or asked what he wants?! Of course he doesn't want to stay with a depressive girl at school 24/7. Who would want that?!
I need a smoke...
Of course I don't have one...
My uncle has cigarettes. Hmmm well dear uncle Julien here I come.

I made my way to his apartment that is like at 30 minutes away and hope he is home. I'll call him when I will be in the bus.

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I knocked at the door and heard a few steps before the door opened.

"Uncle Julien!" I said and hugged him. He looked a little surprised but then hugged me back.

"Hey little one what's up?!" He said and lead me inside. I sat down on the couch and waited for him to come back from the kitchen with a plate full of muffins. This is pure pleasure! I started to dig in the muffins and Julien sat down across from me putting on the table a packet of cigarettes and a light.

"So what is my favorite niece doing here?" He said and took a muffin from the plate. I stopped eating and looked at him.

"Just dad being dad." I said before going back to eating my beautiful berry muffin.

"What does he came up with this time?" He chuckled and got more comfortable on the couch.

I sighted.

"He wants some of his friend's son to 'take care of me'..." I said and rolled my eyes at my own words. My uncle just chuckled and looked at me.

"Well..." He said scratching with his hand the back of his neck and avoiding my eyes.

"You! You are with him and Xan! You all three planned this against me!" I said loud enough for even the neighbors to hear. Julien flinched and told me to calm down. I hate when people tell me to 'calm down' . It just doesn't go with me.

"It's just that... look it's for your own good and I heard the boy isn't some arrogant person or something."

And how this change anything?! It doesn't matter! He can be even the president's son and I still won't stay with him.

"This doesn't change the fact that I have to stay and socialize with him!" I said standing up.

"Can you just stay calm and listen. Please this is not a bad thing. Just an experience." He said and leaned back on the couch.

"I don't want to listen because I don't have what to listen to. I simply just don't want someone to stay with me cause you are afraid of me having panic attacks!"
I yelled and couldn't take it anymore. I took the pack of cigarettes and stormed out the room, out of the building. Looks like I can't go anywhere now. This is more stressing than my problems.

I smoked a few cigs and just returned home. My father tried to talk to me but I just ignored him and gone to my room to try and sleep again.

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~We're all hiding something, aren't we? From the moment we wake up, look in the mirror, all we do is paint our little lies.~