Book of hidden poetry

My Dearest

I am a coward, I am a weakling
But why can't i be? Why shouldn't i be?
When the butterflies in my stomach are the size of dragons
Their talons scratching their way to the surface
As my whole being yearns to convey my feelings towards you
But I'm still scared
So instead of facing my fears
I decide to slay these dragons
Because i think that might be easier to do

If only my words could suffice
If only my emotions be conveyed
If only you could understand how i see you
As not my queen alone but Royalty itself
Your power and influence over me knows no bounds
You possess the throne that could make a king out of me
If i wasn't just a humble servant
I know my words hold no divinity
My actions no consequence
My feelings no power
I know these seem like empty connotations
I have a lot of proof to give for theorizing my emotions
Any day from now, i will,
I hope you'll find my valor strong enough for your honor

I want to know so much of you
So much that your thoughts be my actions
Your trials be my purpose
Your pain be my burden
Your love be my salvation
Nothing of yours will ever be enough or too much
I want you in the most innocent of ways
On the most difficult of days
When the sun shines with the brightest of rays
I am all ears
All eyes
No brain
And all heart
My fear can't keep me down no more
Here are my words for you to read
And my emotions to feel
Sincerely faithfully
With love
Nasrideen.