He doesn't exist (Harry Hook transgender story) {💯%}

11. Hang out

Serena pov:
So Jay and I were going to hang out, Mal told him about the plan yesterday so we'd hang out today instead of yesterday.
"So... what's the plan?" I asked as we sat down by the enchanted lake.
"We could just... talk?" Jay mumbled.
Oh this was going to be awkward.
"Okay..."
We didn't talk for another five minutes and Jay was the first one to speak again.
"When did you find out? That you were... y'know..." he asked and I looked at him.
"I was twelve when I realised it. I was home alone, went to my older sister her room... messed around with her make-up... Then... She helped me, being all supportive and well, basically the big sis I needed. When my father came home we made up some sort of lie; he was already pretty furious when he saw Harriette doing make-up on my face..." I said and Jay looked at me.
"That must've sucked..."
"It's not fun, not being able to be yourself for five years once you've realised you're not yourself... That's for sure."
"Hey, you went to the isle with Mal yesterday to show yourself to your sisters and dad, how did that go?"
"Horrible."
"Yikes."
"My sisters were so excited and happy... Then my father came home... Seeing me-me. He actually slapped me in the face..."
"Are you alright?"
"Yea, I kind of expected it y'know?"
"That's... rough..."
I stared over the water and Jay looked at me.
"Penny for your thoughts?" he asked and I turned to him.
"I've never talked so calmly about any of this to anyone... I was either stressed or freaked out when I talked to someone about this... Not... like now..."
I turned to him and shrugged.
"I mean we used to beat the crap out of eachother when I was still Harry... Now we just... talk?"
He chuckled briefly.
"Did I fight Harry or did I fight you?" Jay asked.
"I... I don't know..." I admitted.
Was I myself when I fighted him... Or whenever I was still Harry. Despite the fact I was never actually Harry...
"So I'd consider my fights with Harry... And I can't fight a guy who doesn't exist." Jay said and I looked at him.
"That's why you wanted to start over..." I mumbled.
"Well yea... Or did you think it was weird when I suggested it?"
"Well yea, especially since you said you didn't even care whenever I was transgender or not..."
"No, I didn't mean it like I didn't care- I just... I meant like it wasn't a bad thing... Like okay, you're you. That's fine and... Yea I see now that it must've sound rude..."
I smiled a little at him.
"It's okay, I get it now." I said and Jay grinned briefly.
"Good." he said and we talked a bit more before we headed back to the campus.