Perceiving the atmosphere outside while hearing the noises passing through my window made me reflect that this uncertain world is still moving forward despite the state of changes brought by this widespread dilemma---the pandemic.
Well, this is just the surface of reality.
The innate trouble is hidden underneath...
Deep within the perseverance of an employee heading to work.
Deep within the snore of an exhausted construction worker.
Deep within the yawn of a jeepney/bus driver who wakes up before the sun rises sending passengers safely back and forth.
Deep within the sigh of a commuter with eyes close yet fully aware of tiny movement and details around him.
Deep within the smile of a merchant trying to convince potential buyers.
Deep within the intensity of students' every writing stroke to accomplish a certain school works.
Deep within the eyes of a grandpa sitting in his rocking chair watching people passing by.
Deep within the desire of a breadwinner to be more optimistic despite the pressure.
Deep within you......Deep within us.........
Deep within our silence.......
Embedded in our innermost thought.
We might not actually want to be transparent about the core of every deep sigh,
A sigh that we can freely express when we sip a cup of coffee in the morning,
when we are stargazing in the middle of the night,
when are alone, when no one is around.
Yet , regardless of how good we are covering up hidden fragments of our true self,
unknowingly, we can never lie to someone who sees the gem engraved within us.
A gem that is just a typical stone to most,
where they usually step on the ground or throw to a river.
A gem to our silent supporter who sees it as a stone that needs to be polished with hard work and persistence in order to shine and be treasured.
But to him,
that gem of yours seize his sight and build his comfort.
No matter how you thought of it as a worthless stone with scratches and scars.
That drives him to admire you from a distance and unknowingly adore you for a long time.
Since we breathe in this uncertain world where too many things flatter our sight and attention, will you be able to notice his presence?
His presence that he himself buries in an opposite persona...
10 years ago..........
MR Silhouette POV
Ever since I conquer my innocence and was able to fully understand how this world works,
I tend to feel empty every now and then.
I always feel that there is something missing.
A part of my whole being is looking for a piece of puzzle.
A puzzle that will help sum up the question in my heart to build the missing formula to solve the answer.
But before that happens,
Here I am standing at the edge of this rooftop.
From this 34th floor building, my ears want to complain about the noises that transpire from a different direction.
My eyes can't even focus on one sight from my bird's eye view.
It is supposed to be an ambiance of comfort but I feel the opposite.
While my eyes close, I open my arms and feel the cold breeze embracing my skin ..it gives an unusual chill.....
Like those birds flying freely in the air..
I wanted to feel alive ....
Nathalie POV
Kringgggggg!!!!! "YEEEYY!!!! " my classmates yelled excitedly.
(RECESS TIME!!)
"Nathalie! Come with me .Let's go the cafeteria together,libre kita ng kwik2x na paborito mo" pag anyaya ni Shine
"I need to go somewhere else. Next time okay? Promise!" sabay takbo ko sa hallway palabas ng classroom.
Since we will have a 30 minutes break time today as announced by the faculty director due to an urgent meeting, I'll head off to my favorite place, the rooftop.
Not in my school but the rooftop next to it. The RCBNT building.
Nang makarating na ko ng rooftop ay agad kong nilabas ang sketchpad ko sabay siksik ng earphones sa magkabila kong tenga.
I use to sneak here just to spend my free time. I came here with my dad once and after that day, I became in love with this place.
This empty place charges me and urges me to fill in the pages of my sketchpad.
iiiiiihhhhhhhhh!!!! tunog ng nangangalawang na pinto ng fireexit .
Napakunot ang nuo ko.
I thought I am the only one here.
Meron na kong kahati sa place na to?.
"hayss!!"
Since nasa kabilang side naman ako na nakasalampak sa likod ng mga halamanan, di nya ako napansin .
He's a student since he's wearing a school uniform.
He's from a different school na familiar ako .
Sino ba naman ang hindi nakakakilala sa JUBILEE CHRISTIAN ACADEMY.
Mga dugong bughaw lang ang nakakapag aral dun.
Well , kita naman sa maganda nyang kutis at sa makapal nyang eye glasses kung gaano nya pinapahalagahan ang pag aaral.
Pinagmasdan ko lang sya habang umaakyat ito sa dulo ng railing ng rooftop.
Tapang nya ah .Dun pa talaga sya umupo.Baliw ba tong mokong na to.
Wait!Nakita ko na to sa horror movies eh.Yung may tatalon sa mataas na building tapus ikaw magiging saksi sa lahat ng mangyayari.Kung mamalasin, ikaw pa mapagbibintangan na tumulak or mumultuhin ka nung nagsuicide.
haha!Ang galing ko talaga.I think writer ako sa past life ko eh.
Biglang nag-iba ang pakiramdam ko nang unti unti nyang hinakbang ang kanyang mga paa sa labas ng railing at tinaas ang kanyang mga kamay.
I don't want to witness the same scene again.
Nakita ko bigla si Papa na akmang tatalon na...at nakangiti sakin.
Kinusut ko ng paulit ulit ang mga mata ko.
"Not again.....!Never again!!!"
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BINABASA MO ANG
Empty Soul (Oh Debahh)
RomanceRegardless of how good you are covering up the hidden fragments of your true self, unknowingly, you can never lie to someone who sees the gem engraved within you. That gem of yours that seizes his sight and builds his comfort. No matter how you thou...
