Book 2: Fears

You're Safe

Author's Note: Back by popular demand :) Here's the first chapter of "Fears", sequel to "Under The Mountan."

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Lexa bolted up, knife in hand, as she heard a scream. The scream came from the blonde laying next to her. She quickly turned, putting the knife away as she realized there was no immediate danger, to the blonde and realized she was having a nightmare. Clarke turned onto her side, tears rolling down her cheeks as she scrunched up her face like she was in pain.

"Clarke?" She whispered. She wrapped her arms around her, trying to calm her down.

"N-no." Clarke muttered in her sleep, trying to fight Lexa off. "L-let me go!" She sobbed. Lexa held on tighter, stopping Clarke from socketing her in the face.

"Clarke, it's ok." She said with a bit more force. "You're safe, you're home." She kept muttering until the girl woke up.

"L-lexa?" Clarke whispered as she blinked open her eyes, red from crying.

"Shh." Lexa moved an arm around her waist, the other arm around her shoulders to bring her closer. Clarke laid her head on Lexa's chest as she cried more. "You're safe. I've got you." She felt Clarke shake as she let out a sob. Lexa's gripped tighten more. It broke her heart to see Clarke like this; plagued with nightmares ever since they took her back from Cage. That had been almost a week ago and every night Clarke would wake up screaming and gasping. Sometimes Lexa would have to wake her up; like this night. She would hold Clarke until she cried herself back to sleep, whispering sweet nothings into her ear.

"I'm sorry.." She heard Clarke sniffle. Clarke pulled back to wipe her tears. "I didn't mean to wake you up...again." Lexa had to hide the small smile that tried to make it's way to her face. Of course Clarke would apologize for having nightmares that woke the both of them up. That's something Lexa loved about her; no matter what Clarke always thought of others before her own self.

"You have nothing to apologize for, Clarke." She said, kissing her forehead. "We can not control what we dream off." She pulled Clarke back to lie on her. She felt Clarke shiver and pulled the furs, that were kicked off from Clarke's trash, back on top of them.

"I wish they would stop.." Clarke sniffled again, holding on to Lexa like her life depended on it. Lexa didn't reply, only nodded slightly. She wished they would stop too, to let Clarke get a full night's rest instead of just fragments. At night it was barely visible, but during the day one could see how the lack of sleep was affecting Clarke. Her eyes where dark and she didn't have the stamina. Though one could say that it was all because of the injuries Clarke sustained that were causing Clarke fatigue, Lexa knew better.

"Try and get some sleep." Lexa said to her Skai Prisa. "I will be here when you wake up, I promise." She whispered. Clarke nodded and closed her eyes, willing sleep to come. Lexa rubbed small patterns on her back, soothing her. It was awhile before Clarke's breathing finally evened out. Lexa stayed awake, no longer tired. She held Clarke as the blonde slept. She would never let go of her love, not again.

Lexa continued to trace patterns on Clarke's back as she began to think of the past week. After they rescued Clarke they went back to the Ark where Abby treated her daughter. Clarke spent the night in the Ark station; receiving medicine. Lexa thought back to the conversation she had with Abby.

(Flash Back)

Lexa stood by Clarke's bed as Abby gave Clarke more medicine via the IV tube that was attached to the blonde's arm. Although Lexa didn't trust the Sky People's medicine much, she had seen it work before and wanted the best for Clarke.

"Will she be ok?" Lexa asked quietly as she ran her fingers through Clarke's blonde tresses. If anyone other than Abby was in the room, she wouldn't have asked the question, not wanting to look weak. She was still the Commander in front of everyone, she needed to keep up appearances, her walls up. But those walls were always torn down when she was with Clarke; sometimes even with her mother, like now.

"She will....though it will take a long time for her body to heal." Abby said after a moment. Lexa looked up at the healer, silently asking for more information. "Apart from the blood loss, from the many, many opens wounds and cuts..." Abby sighed sorrowly. "They took a lot of her bone marrow, she'll need help walking for awhile. She won't be able to walk at least for a week, possibly two. Especially with that leg, though luckily it was a simply fracture." Lexa nodded at this, silently promising to make sure Clarke as off her feet, even if Clarke dismissed what her mother says. The thought make Lexa smile softly, Clarke was always stubborn when she wanted something. She was pulled out of her thoughts as Abby continued. "She's though though...so I know she'll pull through." Lexa and Abby shared a small smile, Clarke was definitely strong.

"She will." Lexa said softly. She knew Clarke would pull through. Abby stayed to the side for a few more moments, before grabbing her jacket that was thrown across the room earlier.

"I'm going to catch a few hours of sleep before I check on her again." She said. "If you wish, use one of the empty cots to rest." She told the Commander; gesturing to an empty bed a few feet away.'

"Thank you, Abby of the Sky People." Lexa said softly. Abby nodded and left the room, leaving Lexa alone with Clarke.

(End Flashback)

Lexa sighed once more as she looked at the sleeping in her arms. She brushed some hair out of Clarke's face, watching her breathe gently. Lexa felt her heart swell with warmth as she look at Clarke. She leaned and kissed her on the forehead, "You're safe." She whispered before closing her eyes. She needed her sleep before facing tomorrow.