My brothers bestfriend (A.M fanfiction) [EDITING]

Chapter 14

Hazel pov:

So last time you heard from me.
Taylor had came over and she told us about her story being sexually abused.
4 months later a lot has happened ...again.

The 'crew' is still inseparable nothing new there.

At school theirs no division because of the clicks , it's just mixed full of people who actually enjoy each other's company and have a lot in common.

Daisha and Austin are dating which I'm happy for them.
But something didn't set right with me.
Every time I look at them I feel sometime of way about it.
But for some reason me and Austin are bonding more and enjoying each other's company. Crazy right?
I know.
But we do a lot of things together that I thought I would never do with him in a million years.
Like going grocery shopping or playing basketball.
He even drops me to school sometimes.

"Sup bud?"Austin asks while placing his hand gently on my back as I remember I asked him to come over so we could shoot some hoops for abit.

"My heads just in the clouds lately" I murmured while I sit on a chair as I lay my chin on the palm of my hands

"What you thinking about?" Austin asks in curiosity now crouching down to my level.

"Stuff" I say blankly

"What type of 'stuff'?" he says while quoting the word 'stuff' with his fingers.
He was like this eager child ready to know every little detail about you.

"You ask a lot of questions don't you?" I state looking at him, he immediately just puts his hands up in defence.

"Sorry just seeing if you were okay ...that's all" He says stretching out his long muscular arms as he gets up taking the ball from the side of me and he then continues shooting some hoops.
I kind of felt like a bitch for being so blunt I was going to get ready to apologise but then Daisha swoops in and goes up behind Austin bear hugging him from the back.
I mentally rolled my eyes🤦🏾‍♀️
Argh! Couples.

Your just jealous because you know that should be you
My voice taunts in my head

Why would I need to be jealous of them.
You know what I'm like when I see too much PDA
I spit to my voice (not literally)
1)you can't do that and...
2)If you could that would be weird and fucking disgusting

No it's because you like  Austin and deep down you know you do but you just block your real feeling for him so you won't get hurt in the process of you two ever dating or dating someone else but remember they won't stay blocked forever sooner or later you'll realise the truth and finally admit that you have feelings for him
My voice spat back

I didn't even respond back because I'm arguing with my thoughts

Yeah you might be arguing with your thoughts but i got you thinking

"Okay Hazel me and austin are going to the mall and then ice cream-" Daisha says but I cut her off

"No need to explain and before you ask no! I don't want to join you because I'll just be a third wheel ...so go have fun"I state trying to make my smile seem more genuine than it was.
She mouths a 'quick thank you' then strolls off hand in hand with Austin

"Great I'm alone ...probably die alone too ...love really sucks" I whisper to myself

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So Daisha and Austin came back from their romantic day date whatever you want to call it.
We were now watching a film and they keep whispering to each other these stupid cute names while kissing and touching each other ...it really is gross!
I go upstairs because the films absolute bullshit especially with those two making so much noice and with their tongues down each other's throats practically choking each other.
I decide the best thing to do right now is to drift off asleep forgetting this "stressful day".

"I hope you feel an ache in you when you slide your hands up her hips and there aren't any scars like there were with me
I hope her breath chokes you cause it doesn't taste like mine
I hope you miss the curls in my hair
I hope her very presence reminds you that she isn't me.
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
I hope your conscience eats at you
and you can't breathe without me
I hope you realise that I'm your only true love but also the one that got away" I say as I glare at him through the mirror as I just witnessed him cheat on me with her
She doesn't love him like I do my body becomes weak as I continue to cut myself to fill the space of my pain
Then everything went black

I wake up in a hot sweat as my was damp as I breathe heavily.
As my body calms down I look around my surrounding and I'm still in my room but it was is pitch black.
But all I could see were figures on the mattress sound asleep.
I wonder how long I was asleep for?

Now I'm awake I know I won't fall back to sleep straight away so I creep down stairs going past the bedrooms seeing all the lights off including Dave's.
Jheeze Hazel.
I'm guessing he got back not that long ago.
I walk towards the kitchen and I see the light still on.
I was half asleep so I didn't think anything of it.
I go in the fridge rubbing my hair slightly as I adjust to the brightness.
I reach out to get some milk out and turn the stove on to heat up it up in a pan so I can make some hot chocolate.

"Can't sleep?" a voice says behind me. I stumbled back abit startled.
I turn around to see Austin with no shirt but grey sweats with messy curly hair laying against his forehead as he rubs he's eyes.

" I guess ...or maybe it's the fact I spent most of the day asleep and now I'm wide awake" I state slightly laughing effortlessly.
He chuckles as he's eyes twinkle which makes me smile
I told you
Shut your mouth I say to my inner voice.

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