The Lifetime Heartbreak

The Beginning

Believe it or not there was a time that my father was the nicest of people and he treasured me as his only daughter. I don't seem to remember the exact details but back then everything was great the families got along and I loved every single aspect of my life. I'm not going to go on talking about his old self because it feels as thought that man and my father now are honestly two different people and it hurts but there is absolutely nothing that can be done about it at this moment of time.

2003

How could anyone ever forget this year it was the year he met her, my mum, they seemed to be so in love with her and he proposed to her not long after meeting her. No one had ever showed him this type of love before. He was the oldest of eight and he sacrificed his whole life for them, his mum and his dad, we don't even speak about what they done for him or the love they gave him because they never treated him like their son, it was as though he didn't exist to them but regardless of what they did to him he loved them so much and he still does to this day. So they got married in the last precious months of 2003. They were like any other newly married couple and I know my mother will admit that those first couple years of her marriage she would do anything to go back to, it was when she actually smiled and felt pure happiness in her heart. I would do absolutely anything and everything to see the woman who birthed me, my mother, regain her old smile because this life treated her so badly and she did not deserve it at all.

2005, I was born, their first child, their first daughter. My mum was so attached as this was her first child, their first child. Only my mum did not know that my father was not the same this was in fact not his first child and she would never find out until later into her life. She was not prepared for it, she was not prepared to find out that the love of her life lived a double life and a lot more later down the line when she had more kids he would abuse them and make them relive his childhood and she would be trapped and not able to do anything about it. My mother did not know any of this, she neither knew of the hopeless woman she would become who wouldn't even be able to protect her first daughter from the man who she thought would be the perfect father to her kids. She didn't know that later down the line she would also go quiet and watch it all happen before her eyes, she would watch the love of her life abuse her oldest daughter, she didn't know that she would stay quiet for his sake because she didn't want anything to happen to him. My mother did not know that she would become her worst nightmare, she would allow her daughter to go through what she promised herself she would never go through. She did not know she would become the woman to allow not only her husband but her brothers to hurt her daughter. My mother did not know because of her staying quiet her daughter would attempt to escape from this life multiple times. My mother did not know the woman she would become because of him.

My childhood got off to a good start I was like any other kid and i was forever happy and loved my parents more than anything.

Now let's fast forward to now. 2022. I'm now 16 years of age turning 17 this year and this 16 years of my life I will forever remember. The hardest thing ever was simply keeping myself alive.