'Chasing' -Bts fic

Chapter one

Being in an all boys school isn't bad. I get a great education and I have great friends. Well a friend but thats beside the point. Theres a lot of ups to an all boys school. But the downs... I'm not phased by getting distracted by female teachers and the fact I can't touch them doesnt make me upset at all. Being me... Seokjin, in a school if boys is distracting. Have you guessed it yet?
yes I am gay. I've always been this way. Well as far back as my memory stretches.
The only one who knows is my friend Taehyung. My parents dont even know. Theyre the kind of parents who would disown me for not being the same as everyone else. I mean it doesn't make me sad to think they'll dislike me.

My name is Kim Seokjin and I'm a 17 year old high school student and I'm gay.

"Seokjiiiiiin!" I heard my name being called out as I was taking my lunch from my bag. My mother had given me the left over daeji bulgogi we had had for dinner last night. It was quite delicious despite my mother being a horrible cook.
"Seokjin-ah! Seokjinnie-jin!" Taehyung was a weird kid. He was a year younger than me and he had issues. Well... He was strange and odd. He had always been this way from the day we met. He used to play with bugs and try to stick them on the girls' dresses with craft glue. I found a small charm in him. He and I are opposite in the fact that he is quite out going and I am more of the quiet one. I usually just nod and smile.

Anyway.

Taehyung approached me with a hug, his muscular arms wrapping their way around my waist, gently squeezing my frame.
"Taehyung.." I smiled softly as I looked over to him, keeping my shoulders up slightly so they didnt touch his arms. My position stayed until he pulled away from the hug. Once I had my packed lunch I shut and locked my locker, mixing the code combination.
I turned on my heels to be met by Taehyung's overly happy smile, which made my lips tug up into a smile just upon seeing. "Whats wrong Taehyung?" I ask, my voice it's usual gentle tone. It was almost feminine and I quite hated it to be honest. But it suited my looks, as said by Taehyung, so I chose to push the hatred to the back of my head.
"Why do you have to study at school, huh? Why can't you do that at home so we can be together now?" The smile that he once had was now gone and changed into an overly dramatic pout. Taehyung was cute. I couldn't help but smile more at the expression he pulled, it was adorable.
"I'm sorry, Tae. I can't study at home, have to do my work at home. Its only for a test, okay?" I leaned forward and pressed the most sweetest kiss I could to the other's cheek, my free hand resting on the small of his back. Taehyung didn't really mind the touchiness between us. Yes I was gay, and most men would think that I was attracted to them if I did what I do to Tae with them. But not Taehyung. Taehyung was bisexual. He knew I had no sexual attraction to him, because we were best friends. Sometimes when I would go to his place for the night, we would cuddle together in bed. My head always on his chest as he ran his fingers through my hair, which always helped me fall asleep. Sometimes when I would lay in my own bed and almost it felt like me was with me. It helped get past all the worries of the day. He was really the only person I had and I was more than content with that.
"I'll see you later." I pressed one more kiss to his other cheek beflre I walked past him to make my way ro the library. I truly felt bad for leaving Taehyung by himself. I felt a strange feeling in my chest, the same feeling occured everytime I managed to make my best friend upset.

I had made it to the library quite peacefully. The library was large. It had two storeys, the bottom for the shelves of books and the top was for studying and for those who liked to hang out in the library. I scaled around the chemistry books taking out a few I though might be helpul for me. The section for the non fiction books wasn't as large as the fiction section, which limited my choice of sources.
As I was taking another from the shelf, the books in my arms fell and in result there was a loud bang and a yelp which made he jump from the startle. It took me a moment for mt brain to figure out I hand dropped the books on someone's foot. They were old books as well, so that meant they were quite heavy.
"Oh- I-" I was at loss for words. My face started to heat up and I swear I looked as red as a tomato. I felt utterly embarrassed to the point where I couldn't speak and take action.
"Sorry!" I blerted out quite loudly. Which earnt quite a few 'shooshes' from some people. I felt like my world could collapse. The pain of embarrassment was too much for me. Instead of staying where I was I hurredly walked out of the library and without taking a second to stop I headed towards the closest boy's toilet. I didn't bother to insult myself. I looked dead straight into the mirror. My brows were furrowed, my face sweaty and red. How could anyone find this face attractive? How could anyone even just look at me?
I heaved a sigh and leant both of my hands on the sink, closing my eyes for a moment. I tried to regain myself. Tried to think of calming thoughts... but as soon as I did, that incident popped back into my head. "Seokjin you fool... smarten up..." I growled to myself. I felt my heavy breathing start to very slowly decrease back go it's normal pace. I looked up at myself once more before I groaned, throwing myself back against the wall. What was i thinking? The way I reacted was worse than dropping the books on the boy.
Time to smarten up, Jin.
I slowly walked out of the boys toilets, keeping cautious of the people around me in case they saw what I did. I wasn't going back into that library any time soon. But I needed to apologise. But that can wait until later right? And I didn't even see who I dropped my ten hundred kilogram books on.
Too deep in thought I was, since I felt my body clash into another. Seriously!? I sighed and just fave a small, "sorry..." I glanced up to see who it was this time. Here came the hot cheeks again. Awkwardly i scurried past him before he could even say a word and tried to make it to my locker, hopig he wouldnt call me back.