It was a normal day, just like any other day. Except my normal is feeling lost and alone, even if I’m in a crowd full of people that I know. My normal is hearing the world talk to me behind my back and it was even worse when I found out it was also the people I was close with doing it.... but hey at least that’s what it used to be like when I had no friends or people that would help me stand up to others.
I walk through the doors of the shinjuku city college, the laughing and yelling instantly filling my ears. “kaji!” someone yelled out from down the corridor. I looked towards where the voice came from to see kaito, tsukiyomi and Amaterasu all waving at me, friendly and welcoming smiles all present on their faces.
I smiled back at them as I walked over to them “Good morning gu-AH!?!” I yelled as I fell over face planting the floor. Someone had tripped me and now everyone except my friends were laughing at me like i was some type of joke to them.
“Kaji!!!” Kaito yelled pushing through the crowd in a rush to get to me. He helped me up quickly “T-Thank you love" I whispered to him, tears starting to form in my eyes as the laughs continued
“Don’t listen to them kaji. Their just idiots who have nothing better to do then pick on the love of my life” kaito explained as we walked to class.
I blushed bright red and walked quicker putting some distance between us which made kaito chuckle. All four of us soon arrived at our class on time for the first time ever but the bell soon started ringing. So we all quickly took our seats, kaito sitting in front of me. Tsukiyomi and Amaterasu beside us.
Soon enough a teacher entered the class and begun the lesson. After a while my head began to feel heavy so I laid it on the desk, got comfortable and fell asleep almost instantly
“Hahaha" everyone laughed “loser" “idiot" they called me. Those damn voices. I hate them so much. Words like that are what haunt me the most, sometimes the voices can be worse and sometimes they don’t exist at all. I was thankful for the dreams where the voice didn’t exist cause then I could enjoy my rest instead of waking up terrified of going back to sleep again
By the end of the class I started to slowly opened my eyes and i was back to my reality where I once again felt loved and accepted by all of my loved that I cherish most in my life
I looked around the room and realised that is was just kaito and I left in the room, everyone else had already left for their next class. “Welcome back my love" kaito mumbled placing his hand on my face, brushing my hair away from my eyes. My face instantly flushed red as he moved his face closer to my own, but all of a sudden, he stopped and pulled away completely.
I felt my soul leave my body because I was so ready to kiss him then he denied it from me. “Come on kaji. We got to meet up with the others for lunch" he said extending his hand for me to take, so I did and kaito gently pulled me up kissed my forehead then pulled me behind him.
All of us sat underneath the giant cherry blossom tree as we always do, we started chatting about how much our classes sucked and you know, typical teenage stuff, until a girl that none of us knew walked over to us
“hi, my names Akina, I’m sorry to intrude on your little conversation here but can I borrow Kaji for a moment” she spoke ever so innocently
“no you may not take him” Kaito growled at her
The girl flinched slightly and took a step back, I stood up, walked over to Kaito, kissed him on the forehead “its okay babe, I’ll be right back, ok?” i asked
Kaito nodded his head slightly so i then walked over to the girl “let’s go” i said as she began to walk so i followed her
We walked for a bit but as soon as we turned a corner I was slammed against a wall and pinned to it but it wasn’t because of the girl. It turned out to be a group of a least five boys
They didn’t speak but they did let me go. I stood still, to terrified to move
They surround me then began to hit me, and it didn’t take long for me to collapse onto the floor but they didn’t care in the slightest, they continued to hurt me in anyway they could
After a few minutes they had finally stopped and left so i then sat up, wincing in pain and pulled out my phone and typed “why do i have to feel like crap all the time and then Pretend to be fine like nothing's happened to me. Its so hard to fake being happy all the time. I can’t take it anymore. I know that i need help but i just cant bring myself to talk to anyone about it cause I feel like I'll annoy them or push them away completely. I’m sorry kaito but this is my final goodbye. I’m going to jump now.”
I walked to the roof and then sent the text to kaito. I looked down from the ledge to the busy street below, full of cars and people.
I Then heard the roof door open then slam shut. I looked back and saw kaito out of breath
“im sorry you now have to witness this kaito. Goodbye" i mumbled as I learned backwards and closed my eyes as I began my decent
I felt a rush of air around me but then all of a sudden it stopped.
I opened my eyes to see kaito holding my wrist as tight as possible as he was pulling me up
I struggled for a moment then gave up
Once we were both safe i heard kaito say “dont you dare do anything like that again kaji, i cant afford to lose you. Otherwise I’ll end up losing myself"
I stayed silent but looked at him as i teared up. “I’m sorry” I whispered, we stayed silent for the rest of the day and just watched to sky pass buy.
Since then a few months had passed. All of us graduated and I got help from professionals. But yea. Life is going well now and I can’t wait for the future.
Fin
