Time goes by , We live in same house .. We travel and so on .. life is so perfect but one day something change .. I felt there is a distance between us .. He do something in private , like hiding something from me and he never do that .. I felt something wrong , So I have checked his phone which I never do but my guts keep telling me to check it . So yeah I opened it and I was shock seeing message from a girl. His another lover she basically know that he is taken and with me .. but the worst part she doesn't care she is my friend .. Used to be friend , I was devastated knowing it. I confronted him to stop doing shit with me. I ask him to choose me or her , He said he choose me.. but deep down on my self I have doubt my trust already shattered . For 2 years he never let me feel sad .. I given him 2nd chance but he keep cheating on me until one day I given up .. I was so mad I thrown my phone out of anger , I packed all of his things . I pushed him hard to be with her girl .. My parents heard for what happened. My mom asked me , Do you love him ? I replied yes Ma but he keeps hurting me and he keeps cheating on me. Mama replied but it's only on chat and I repute it doesn't matter if it chat or what he still cheating on me and that girl is my friend I thought she is a good person but he makes me and him to be in this state .. Maybe I'm not enough to him , He even trust her than me .. I'm so hurt . Later on my mama just stop pursuing me to talk to the man. I been single after that he and him got together. Time goes by he contacted me saying his regret that all my saying about the girl is true. He ask helped to give him a chance again .. I was stupid and accepted him but I'm far from him. I travel with my cousin just to forget him . I talked to my father to let him stay at the house but then he cheated again I heard a news he is cheating on me . I called and chatted my father to kick him out . I was so rage my blood boils . He got kicked out and live to his friends who he met at online games.
I was so peaceful but one day he chatted on me saying I'm here at my new girl house who is worth it than you. Thank you but I can promise you a thing. Sorry for my wrong
That's the end of my story ..
I realized that you can't give your 100 percent love because it's very painful to be left behind . When you did your best for the future and see yourself to be with him but he don't. When you see that this man will not make another mistake knowing he knows the feeling of being betrayed. Well life is full of drama. Love is not always what we wanted to happen. For me Love is not just for kilig. Love is not only happiness. Love is not always giving chances. Love is not worth fighting for when he is not holding.
For me if you love someone you will help them grow, If we have misunderstanding we must fix it. Fights and misunderstanding is normal but you must know how to settle the score. Don't revenge solve it together. See yourself in there shoes if you want to know what to feel. Don't be selfish , don't close your mind in your own world without hearing the truth. Don't listen to extra's there not part of the relationship. There must be a bound , don't let it slide because your tired.
Ask yourself why your parents and grandparents stay for to long ? That's not because there is a forever. It's because they both want that relationship to keep on working. There is trials and ocean of problem that must be resolve together. So if you met someone who will keep holding even there is so much pain and temptation grab it. Don't let it go. It's a rare gem who will be there on your worst time and good time. Kahit sobra toxic mo na.
Praying for all people out there who experience shattered Love but keeps fighting to move forward. I pray we found that someone who will be there for us whatever it means. Life must go on and love is a gamble. How will we know if we don't try? Don't closed your heart because of the pain but accept the fact that not everyone na makikilala mo is andyan para sayo. Minsan dumaan lang sila para matuto ka. Para sa susunod alam mo na kung ano gagawin mo. Widen your mind. Huwag mo madaliin Ang lahat. Wala shortcut tulad ng ating pagtanda dumaan sa pakababy.
That's all . I will keep writing what in my mind. As what I told you this is my way of moving on other than traveling. You can give me advices and vice versa. Thank you
