Young, Gay, Love

Chapter 15: Hot Water

No amount of words can describe the anger, exhilaration, and shock I felt when he approached me and touched my hand.

"I missed you." Alex said with that puppy dog look. His mouth was slightly open and his piercing blue eyes were gazing into mine. "How have you been?"

He moved his head to the side then the other. "Are you there?"

"Huh?" I said still processing the amount of emotion racing through my brain.

"How have you been?" He chuckled and his infamous smile appeared. His smile...

"I-I-I I've been mad at you..." Then I felt like I was slapped. I was mad at him! What am I doing?!

"Why are you here?!" I more or less shouted and jerked my hand away.

"To talk to you!" He exclaimed and then his expression turned to pain. "What's wrong with you?" He asked while mentally nursing his ego.

"Wrong with me? WRONG. With ME? Last time I checked I wasn't the guy who left a guy for his exe because that guy was not attractive enough. Last time I CHECKED. I wasn't the guy who decided starting over with someone who was in love with that guy. But he decided it was a bad idea. NO. The question should not be pointed towards me. It should be pointed towards with you." And with that final phrase I pointed and pushed my index finger into Alex's chest.

His face was priceless. Shock, realization, and pain just overtook his expression. He slowly took a step back while holding his hand over his chest, mouth open, and eyes grounded to my venomous gaze. In a way it looked like I shot him.

"I-I'm sorry. When you say it like that it sounds worse." He let out. If the words were a physical object it would be blood.

"Sorry?" I said while taking a step towards him. "Is 'sorry' going to fix the humiliation I went through? I put my heart on the line. You said I was the first Asian that you found attractive. We kissed. We shared intimate moments. And then you left me for your ex who had to talk to his psychologist about taking you back. Your psycho ex who left you for some shallow reason. I was there for you and then you ditched me for a jerk. Sorry, is not going to cut it buddy."

With that final rant I was in his face. I was so close to his face that I could feel the tears falling from his eyes.

"I don't know what else to say." He breathed.

"Then don't say anything." I said.

Out of nowhere Alex embraced my head and kissed me. My eyes were wide open and I tried to pull away, but something about the kiss brought me back in. And then my arms found their way around his waist. His chest pressed to mine and my lips pressed to his underneath my town Bravo's bar sign.

"Hey, you guys coming up?" Eric's voice pierced through this odd reality moment.

We both jumped away from each other with that deer in the headlights look. Well, more for me the kid who got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. Darn guilty pleasures.

"Uhm, what?" I said again trying to process what is going on.

"You and Alex can join us now. We're back and ready to party." Eric said with that chuckle.

"Uh yeah do you wanna?" I spilled out of my lips that can't seem to function.

"Sure, yeah, why not. As long as there is a lot of girly drinks." He replied. I could tell his lips were definitely wanting to be somewhere else.

"Then yeah let's go up." I said and I signaled towards the door.

"Crazy kids." Eric muttered and made his way up those steep steps.

My walk up consisted of me tripping and my thoughts also tripping. What the heck just happened? Why am I hanging out with the guy who broke my heart? Well actually, why did I let the guy that broke my heart kiss me? I am so confused and now I am sitting down on the couch.

"Whoo party time!" Shane shouted.

" Music time!" James shouted back. And the song LMFAO started playing on the sound system.

With that a drink was shoved in my hand and I was guzzling it.

Perfect no time to think just drink.

"Cheers." Alex whispered in my ear and I knew I was in trouble.

Hot scalding water trouble.