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Epistemology of loss

Note: Ithu related to Ashaangi ya vum eduthukalam, ila oru normal story a vum pakalam. But na itha oru Ashaangian pov la eluthuna vishiyam. 

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A small girl sitting alone in the park was feeling bored, when a cheery little kid, came with a pretty toy. The girl says, "The toy is pretty, can I see it closer". 

The kid comes closer, and both start to play with the toy together. Days passed and their bond grew, the girl loved to play with kid. They stayed together no matter what.

One fine day, the little kid had to move away, to a place far better. He gave his toy to the girl as a memento saying, "You loved the toy didn't you?...keep it...I can always get another...".

Little did he know, it wasn't the toy she wanted. All she wanted was his presence for the rest of her life. He came suddenly, filled her life with colors, left for his betterment, taking away all her hope and happiness, sending her back to square one...All alone. Even tho her mind stood with him in his decision to leave, her heart screamed for his presence. 

She wanted to ask him to stay, but then she knew that she'd be selfish. letting him go will cause her soo much pain, but Asking him to stay will risk his happiness. And she cant see him sad..Can she? So she let goo, even if she didn't want that. 

There can always be another toy, another kid to play with; but the feel, emotions, and memories can neither be forgotten nor recreated.

Was she wrong in hoping he stays forever? 

She never thought the possibility abt him leaving. By the tym she started to think about how her life would be without him, he already left giving her a huge bye and a toothy grin. And here she was crying her hearts out for experiencing her 1st heartbreak. 

All she could do was remember him when she sees other kids play, remember him when she sees the toys they played with together, remember him when her mind involuntarily replayed their memories hurting her each tym. How can she suddenly detach herself from something so precious to her? She wanted to forget but she couldn't. 

After all, it's the main defect in mankind🙂Silent cries and buried emotions! Having 1000's around her, but none to share it too. But she has to move on and she will, it will take tym, even if it takes her the rest of her lifetime.

It's easy for ur brain to understand and be practical. But it's not the same for our hearts. You can never restrict emotions. It's hard to not get attached to something. But what's harder, is detaching yourself from something when you can't and don't want to. 

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The hope candle in me is still lit. Irukura varaikum anubavipom. Oruvela poiduchuna, atha apo pathupom. Live in the MOMENT🥰Ignore the negatives and focus on them, Only them. 

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