Pain was what woke me up that morning. The feeling of starvation gnawing away at me mercilessly. I rolled over with a groan, burying my face in a cheap body pillow. I lifted my head up after a moment to reach for my phone.
"12:34?!?"
I stumbled out of bed and hit the ground face first with a thud.
"Ow, ok, let's not do that again-"
I pushed myself up with feeble arms and shaky knees.
"Ugh, here we go already. C'mon you ole' hunk of junk, we have stuff to do."
After 5 minutes of trying to find the will (and physical strength) to get up, I finally found my feet, and I was ready to prepare for the day. I walk over to my dresser to grab a stretched out red hoodie, black ripped jeans, and I snatch my checkered vans from under my bed as I make my way to the bathroom to shower and do skin care, you know, hot girl shit or whatever.
I took, like, an 8 minute shower? Yeah lets go with that because my perception of time is actually dog water. I stepped out of the shower and dried off, then I proceeded to wrap the towel around my waist and walked infront of the bathroom mirror. Turns out its not a good idea for a super insecure dude to walk in front of a mirror basically naked.
Oh god.
I wanted to cry.
I wanted to cry so bad but its too early in the day for that shit.
"No, no Finn, not now, not yet, your gonna be ok, just breathe. Its way too early for this."
My breath hitched as I inhaled through my nose, eyes watering but not enough to spill.
"That's it. In through the nose, out through the mouth"
There. That wasn't so bad.
Only 45 minutes into this day and I already almost had a panic attack.
On the optimistic side, that's a new record.
I decided after that to put my clothes on before I did my skin care.
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Walking into the kitchen, I head straight for the coffee machine.
"Oh coffee my beloved, how I love you so"
As I started the coffee maker, my phone went off. Picking it up, I saw it was from my best friend, Koi.
Koi is a tall kid, around 6'2, towering over me. He's basically the human embodiment of like, every golden retriever ever, but just like golden retrievers, his bite is way worse than his bark.
Fish boy🐠: YO YOU GOOD FAM?
Fish boy🐠: sorry caps LOLFinn🍀: yeah im alr lol
Finn🍀: wbu?Fish boy🐠: im fucking ballin bro
Finn🍀: am i supposed to know what that means ?
Fish boy🐠: no LMFAO
Finn🍀: T~T
Fish boy🐠: OI WAIT YOU SHOULD COME OVER
Finn🍀: liek rn?
Fish boy🐠: BRO YASSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Finn🍀: yeah ok why not lmao
Fish boy🐠: aight bet cya in a bit
Finn🍀: yupp
I looked at the coffee pot solemnly.
"Sigh, Monster will have to work I guess"
Koi had a lot of monster at their house, their a streamer and their boyfriend, Max, just has a crippling caffine addiction.
I heaved a heavier sigh this time. The one time I actually put in effort to make coffee too. Tch, oh well.
I grab my keys off the hook behind the door, wave goodbye to my cats, and get in my car.
"Alright, if there is a God, please make sure I dont pass out behind the wheel-"
(Sorry its so short, this is kinda like a teaser?? Idek if im finna finish this so I MIGHT SEE YOU NEXT TIME I MIGHT NOT WHO KNOWS LMAO -Your beloved)
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Hey Girl, Are You A Fence? Because I Can't Get Over You.
Fanfiction(WARNINGS!!!! THIS STORY CONTAINS MENTIONS OF AB!SE, S*LF HARM, R@PE, EATING DISORDERS, AND A LOT OF GORE!!!! DONT READ IF THAT KINDA STUFF TRIGGERS YOU OR MAKES YOU UNCOMFY!!) This is the story of my oc so uh, its not gonna be someone you know, so...