Tired... (Euphoria)

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If you really think this story, has a happy ending guess again, because it doesn't. Let me tell you what happened to me before the accident, more specially 12 months before...

06:20 AM January 4th, 2021

I hate Mondays, why do we even have to go to school? Teachers just keep saying the same things and we are expecting to know everything? What are we? Genius machines? We don't even know what are we going to be , yet... some maybe know, but i certainly don't, because this doesn't feel real to me at all, this feel like I'm in someone else life from afar... But good thing is I'm going to see my bestfriend Rue !!!AHHH! i missed her so much, i can't wait to tell her everything, well i didn't do anything much, but it's still fun to talk to her and she isn't trying to convince me to rid of drugs, like others do. Okay now is 7:08am i have to get ready for school...

-Morning!- says Fez,

-Morning.- I murmur, i didn't really felt like getting up today, but i did...

-Are you excited? -asks Fez.

-For what?-I ask. I don't have a clue what he's talking about, he's always talking senseless things, maybe its one of them..

-Meeting up with Rue! -he says

-Oh, right - I say, how could I forget, my head is so full of other thing right now I totally forgot about her...

-I know you may be tired, so I thought, you may want to skip school...-says Fez

-No, no, no- I cut him off, before he can say anything else.

-I want to go. Besides, I haven't seen her in like forever, see you after school!- I say

-Wait, you forgot your lunch! -he says

-I will eat there , it's alright!- I say and walk off, before he can say anything else.

07:30

I'm going to school, because I need to clear my head and think what i would say to everyone else . I skipped the party at school. Because I felt sick more than ever, and I see it was fun, I guess, I think Rue and Jules was there, then Maddy called me from the party and said what they were doing, and what Nate did and I just laughed, Then Fez left somewhere, then I found out he punched Nate and I somehow felt like i should have told that to Maddy, but I just said ''I'm sorry, I hope he gets better soon" ,or something like that, because I don't remember that night that well, because I was so high.

08:00AM

I'm in my first lesson, and I'm already bored, I didn't saw Rue anywhere, I guess she skipped the 1st lesson. Lucky bitch. But I did saw Maddy , but I hide it from her , because she'll ask me questions, I don't have answers for and I don't want to go through that again. I did said hi to Lexi though, she is kind of my friend, but she doesn't accept of me doing drugs, but we 're still friends, she's good friend even though I don't talk to her about drugs, we just talk how was I doing and we went to class together.

The bell rang and we all go through the door. When i go through the hall i saw Jules and Rue together?!The hell! No, she would tell me if they got together, obviously!I just have to talk to her, go to her, calm down , it's your bestfriend...

-Here you are. I've been looking everywhere for you!- i say, as i walk up to Rue.

-Oh, hey! - she says. - I thought, we thought, we will skip 1st period and have fun.. I'm sorry, I didn't told you that we got together, you just had so much stuff going on.-she says

-I know-i say. -It's okay.

-I will leave you two alone, seems you two have stuff to catch up on.- says Jules.

- Okay thanks - says Rue, and before she can go they both kiss, and it's so romantic. I wish I could have that love, because I know how much Rue loves Jules. - See you later! bye Kate!- says Jules

-Bye Jules! - I say

-so how was your vocation?-I ask

- It was good, not so good without you- she says

-Come, on! We'll be late to class- i say, as i put my arm over her shoulder as we walk.

-Y'know I made a friend- says Rue

-Oh really?-I say.

-On new years party. - she says

-Wow.- I say.

as we walk to class, Maddy waves to me, I wave back, I'm glad I don't have to talk to her...

-Let's go sit in the back! - I say

As we sit in the back, Rue told me how Jules said sorry that she left her, even thought, I probably would never forgive Jules, but I have to pretend that I respect her if I want to continue a friendship with Rue. She told me abut her friend Elliot that they've been doing drugs together and I asked her why they didn't invite me and she said that they thought that I was still in my recover, but I said the same thing Rue told me after her own recovery "Do you think that though I overdosed I will be stop using drugs? Ah, not a chance!" And she gets me, she just thinks that I should be careful and I told her exactly the same after her recovery.

10:05AM

The bell rang and Rue went to meet up with Jules and I told her that it's okay because i have to do something first and I will meet up with them at lunch and then we hugged and the we both left. I was going to the bathroom for drugs, to get high, because I can't feel what's real and what's not anymore, so I need to get high. The good thing no one was in the bathroom, so no one bothered me.

10:20AM

After that, I hid drugs in my jean pocket and left and headed to English class with Lexi, even though we sit across the row she still kept giving me a glare even though I did something bad, drugs are not that really bad, but she thinks otherwise, but I really could care less, about what she thinks. But sometimes it's good to listen to her, if something awful would happen to of any of us. Half of the lesson I was asleep, because I already knew all the things teacher was saying and she keep giving me A's and that is keeping Lexi mad and I absolutely adore that. So the teacher gave me the permission to sleep in the back of the class, she even gave me the pillow, how sweet of her. I kept sleeping, until I heard my phone buzzing so I reached and take out my phone from my backpack pocket, it was Cassie, i ignored and kept sleeping, the phone buzzed again, the I put my phone to airplane mode.

The class for me ended but for Rue was one more lesson, so head out from school earlier and was hoping to walk to my house, but Fez picked me up from and I kind of was glad, because I didn't wanna talk to Maddie.

-Thanks for picking me up!- I say to Fez, as I get in a car.

-Yeah, sure, no problem - he says. - How was school? - he asks

-It was fine - I say

-Did Rue said anything about Jules? - he ask

-Yeah, she...wait, how did you know about that?- I ask

-she told me - he says

-Of course she did - I say

Then he kept driving silent, without any word from any of us. When we reached home, i was so tired, I went to sleep...

Cc: Here's the thing i didn't know how much drugs I had taken, but I knew that not too much, but I was so wrong, you have no idea... I had taken too much drugs that no one was be able to woke me up in a 3 days...