Flowers don't growl

Chapter 1

🔙 🏠 BACK HOME 🔙🏠
✨ Santania pov ✨
I was finally going back home
From college I was not going
Miss my college life cause
Imagine raising 4 kids by yourself and
Going to school at the same time it was
Stressful but I succeeded top
Of my class.
So I'm a Sonographer
Technician and RN
And I'm going back home
Cause I got a good job offer
Where I get pay 250.50 per hr
And I work 8 hour shifts for 2
Weeks yes I know that's to much
Time to be working but I want my
Kids to have the best life possible.
So I'm moving back so
Justice mom can watch them while I
Work I don't have any family.
Nia you've been gone for almost 2 years
And I miss my bestie and I want to
Meet my nieces and nephews and maybe
You can talk to him justice says.
Girl, bye whatever I'll talk to
You when I finish unpacking I say.
Okay,love you justice says.
Love you too I say.
Unpacking the last 6
Boxes for Dianah's room.
I have a 5 year old cortez jr
Which he knows about but
I hadn't Told him
the triplets 9 months
in my first semester in college.
Only justice knew because
I hid my 2nd pregnancy from our
school and your probably wondering
About their dad he's doesn't
Know about them and it's because
He chose the wrong path to go
Down that lead to him ending up
in jail so that's why I'm a
Single parent, I know he's
Out of jail now I don't really plan
On telling him about them
Which is selfish in other opinion
But some of the shit he was out
Here doing was dirty and I'd
Rather not get me or my kids
Involved in it.
I put everything away
And my house is now
Ready .
I was happy i bought
My first home an
2 days later
I'm at the mall with justice and
We're at the food court eating.
You know Cortez out and
You should probably tell him
About the kids she says
No,I don't think so I say.
You of all people who grew up
In the Forster care system should
Know how it feels to not know
Your parents she says.
I don't want to talk about this
Right now I say
Cleaning the kids faces and
Hands.
After finishing eating we
Continue shopping.
Your totally is 565.89 cent .
How would you like to pay
Cash or card the cashier says.
Card please I say.
I swipe my card and I grabs
My bags and go to another
Store to be clothes.
I know I be spending to
Much on my kids but I
Love my kids and anything
For them.
To be honest I thought
I would never get pregnant
Again And cj would me my
Only child
Because of how my life was
Going but hey look
At me now taking care of
4 kids alone and doing
A good job at it at lease
I think I am.
📸⚡️Flash back 📸⚡️
Justice come on Cortez waiting
Outside and u still not goddamn
Dressed I say.
You told me 20 mins ago
We were going to this party
And that's not a enough time
For anyone to get ready she
Says.
Okay,whatever miss Gorl
I'm a wait down stairs I say.
Feel sick all of a sudden
Which as been happening a
Lot lately but I just push it
Off and wait for justice .
She's finally ready and we leave out
Finally making it to the party
Cortez my boyfriend is
Outside doing his business as
Always and he's talking on
The phone to someone.
Don't call me anymore you fuck
Up This time again I promise I'm a
fuck you up he says hanging up.
You alway being mean to somebody I say.
I have my arms wrapped around
Him , he looks down at me kissing me.
Cortez is mean to damn near everybody
And doesn't take bullshit from nobody
And protective of what's his.
We were friends since
First grade and start dating in
Middle school 6 grade year .
We had our first child
Together C.j at
13 and 14
He's been mine since
Then we were always there for
Each other no matter what
Happened he was my
Soulmate.
I got yo food he says
Really I say excitedly
But kiss and I'll tell he says
Okay,i kissing him.
You a fat ass he say
I flip him off
It's in the backseat he says.
Once the smell of the food
Hits my nostrils I feel
Everything come up
And I throw up on the
Side of the car.
What wrong with chu? he say
Probably coming down with sum
That's all i say.
Opening the sprite he got
Me and drinking it
And start eating my
Favorite jerk chicken
With yams,baked
Mac and cheese with dirty
Rice and monkey bread.
And he reverts back to
His rude self while getting back
On the phone.
Our day to day life is him
Being nice then rude the
Next minute to sum body.
Whoever he on the phone
With now must have really pissed
Him off because he was yelling
At them saying how when
He "get over to him he better pray "
I felt bad for the person
On the other end of that
Call he hangs up
And gets in the car angry.
What wrong ? I ask
Nun he says.
I decided to leave him
Alone the rest of the
Night knowing when
He gets like this
He would possibly snap
On me.
📸🔙End of flashback ⚡️🔙
I get home and get the kids
Ready for bed and I
Put everything up
And I do my Nightly
Routine and go to bed
💭 Dream 💭
Setting park
Nia when did you get
Back a familiar voice says.
Oh...I...I just got moved back
Not to long ago Cortez I say
Mommy,cj says
I look down them and my eyes widened
I Wanna be in my son life
Again he says
He barley knows who you
Is I says
Putting Dianah paci
Back in her mouth
You got pregnant a again she says
1 year and 8 months ago
I say. and I see him
Doing the math in His
His head and he looks
At me like something just
Clicked.
They my kids he say.
Uh..uh yeah I say.
I wake up ina cold sweat
Panicking and I look around
Realize I'm in my bedroom
And I get out the bed
Deciding to check on my
Babies and to my surprise their
Still sleeping.
I guess that was my sign that
I can't hide them forever from
Him and I needed to tell them.
I go back to bed.