Forbidden Love

Chapter 6

Anna

"So how are you feeling today, Anna?" my new therapist asked. "Uhm, fine I guess." I said nervously. "So, your dad briefly explained the situation, but I want to hear it from you. What happened that day?" "He tried to kill me." I stated, avoiding eye contact. "I'm going to need more than that." she pried, still staring, making me very uncomfortable.

"I don't want to talk about this." I said. It may have been a little snappy, but I don't care. I don't want to be here. "Come on Anna, I know this is uncomfortable and probably the last place in the world you want to be right now, but you need to at least try." She replied, more sympathetic now. I sighed.

"Fine. We were having a fight, as usual. Then I had a sudden burst of confidence and tried to break up with him because I couldn't take it anymore. I soon realized that was a big mistake when he literally tried to kill me."

"And how did that make you feel?" she asked calmly, as if I just told her my hamster died. "Obviously not good, I could have died!" I said, raising my voice a little too much. I immediately felt bad, she's just trying to help.

"Sorry, I'm sorry. It made me feel really scared. I thought that was the end. When I started passing out, I was terrified. I didn't know if I was going to wake up again." I said quietly. It felt weird saying my feelings out loud to a total stranger I met 10 minutes ago.

"It's okay. Don't apologize. I can think that must have been really scary. No one should have to go through that. How did you feel when you eventually woke up? What was going through your head?" she replied, gentler now.

"I was really confused. I couldn't remember anything. I didn't know what I was doing in a hospital bed hooked up to a bunch of machines. Then it all hit me at once and it was almost worse than when it actually happened." I admitted.

"That's completely understandable, and it couldn't have been easy to keep retelling the story to all the police officers." "Yeah, it was really hard. I started crying every time." I said, tearing up again.

"You're really brave Anna, to have made it through that. I can't promise you that it will get easier quickly, but it will eventually. You have a lot of people that care about you. You're not in this battle alone." I guess that did make me feel a bit better.

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"Bye Anna. I'll see you next week." she said, waving, as I got into my dad's car.

"So how" he started saying. "It was fine dad. It wasn't as bad as I thought. She's really nice." I assured him. "That's great honey." he said with a big smile. "Let's go and get ice cream." "Okay, I want chocolate with sprinkles."

I felt strangely positive about this whole therapy thing now. I kept convincing myself that I was going to hate it and didn't even want to give it a chance, but I'm happy I did. It felt good to let go of all the emotions and feelings I tried to shove to the back of my mind. It made me feel less alone.

Maya

"I'm really glad you went. I think this would be really good for you." I said, and I meant it, despite my dislike for psychologists. "Yeah, I'm glad I went to. It was a little bit weird at first, but then it got better. I've got to admit, it did actually help." she replied giving me a small smile, causing butterflies in my stomach. I dismissed the feeling as soon as it came up.

She's my best friend and I don't want to jeopardize that just because I'm in love with her. Although I try and push it away, the feelings are always there. I've felt this way for two years and almost admitted it once, but I got scared and chickened out. I just can't help it.

She's got the most beautiful green eyes; with little brown flecks and the perfect lips I sometimes steal a glance at. She's so kind and loving and gives the best hugs, but I can't afford to think like that. I can't risk losing her.

She's the greatest friend I could ever ask for but it's best to keep it like that. She doesn't feel the same way and I need to learn to accept that.