Chapter 14: Three Confused Hearts
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Delay...
Now my feelings are a little mixed up...
I'm also starting to feel an discomfort that is very difficult for me to explain...
After saying that sentence, Sean didn't say anything else. Not a word, nothing. All of this stresses me out and I mean it, because even though he's not talking to me, Sean keeps looking at me the whole time.
I didn't dare intervene for Yok, I had to let Phi Sorn take him, there were many times Yok wanted to come here to talk to me, but Phi Sorn seems to know that Sean isn't doing very well. mood, so she kept him thinking about his beloved brother.
What I mean is...
He doesn't talk to me, but he still follows me around like I'm my shadow. I blew it, right? Can't you see this makes me tense? Everywhere I go Sean follows me and sits next to me and still refuses to talk to me, my brain is about to explode!
"Sorn"
The four of us spread out across the room and Sean called his older brother, who was playing with Yok.
"What's wrong?" Phi Sorn asked.
"I'm sleepy, I'm going to go upstairs to sleep"
"Yes go. You must be tired of looking at someone all day, better try to occupy your mind with something else, do laundry, sweep the house, clean, learn to put on makeup, learn to sing, dive, plant trees, observe, meditate, golf . Do what you want, just don't let others worry about you."
His words made me more uncomfortable...
"Yes," Sean said shortly as he got up from the bench, looked at me for a while and went upstairs. I immediately jumped up to sit next to Phi Sorn.
"Phi Sorn, I'm so stressed."
“Why?” Phi Sorn turned to look at me. Yok, when he saw that Sean wasn't there, he moved to sit next to me and also sat on his feet and placed his hands on his chin to look at me. But right now I don't feel like talking to him.
"So, Sean." I complained immediately. "He don't want to talk to me."
"Damn, shit, I feel frustrated, he made me look like a fool, all with the intention of conspiring to make you his lover." Phi Sorn muttered, then pouted, but I couldn't hear him clearly because it sounded like he was cursing himself.
"What?" I asked him.
"Phi said he was just in a bad mood."
"In bad mood?" I grimaced. "What frustrated you so much Phi? I feel like you're really angry."
I felt depressed...
"If he was really mad, he wouldn't let us sit in the house, so let's see. So far, Sean isn't as angry as he usually is. Think about it, if he was angry, why would he keep protecting you all the time? Not even mosquitoes can bite you."
"I comforted him, but it didn't reassure him at all." I regretted.
All day, when Sean was beside me, I tried to get him to talk and play with him, but shit, he kept making a static face so strong my head hurt. His face was frozen.
"Because there are other people following you, it is very difficult. If I weren't so angry, I wouldn't be watching you all the time."
"So..." He intended to ask more.
"Do you mind that I'm so angry?" Yok asked me suddenly.
"Yea." I turned to answer.
I feel good about Sean. Honestly, I like him, not as a friend, I can assure you that I only feel that way with Sean, but that kind of feeling isn't strong enough to immediately accept him as my lover.
