Poetry

Choices

Choices

Why do we choose?
Why do we have people who set you up to hurt you?
So many questions that cannot be answered all at once.
But all I have to say is that I'm tired.
I'm tired of trying to be happy with someone.
I have friends and family that love me for me and I don't need a boyfriend to tell me I'm pretty, friends and family are for that.
God I hear you now. Thank you for the sign. I'm sorry for ever doubting you. I'm sorry for ever thinking that I'd have a relationship that would work. I think your telling me something with this whole relationship deal. I think I'm better with myself and no one holding me down, but I wish I could hold a brave face and a brave heart. That won't work very well when it comes to disappointment after disappointment.
Don't get me wrong I hurt people, obviously I'm not perfect either. We live in a sinful world where there's nothing but hurt and tears. Someday though, someday we will live in a city full of gold where there is no hurt and no tears. God will walk next to me everyday and talk to me as if I'm walking down the side walk with an old best friend. But I know his friendship means forever. You know why?

Cause he promised me never to leave me in my darkest hours.

Thanks god.