Too Good To Be True

Good for you

I'm done with it. I'm finally free to be myself. Josh had me in such a position where I couldn't even express my own emotions to him. I felt like that relationship was all just a show to his friends, but maybe that's because it sort of was.

I can't even imagine me staying with him after I saw what he did. I was so shocked, I just had to talk to him after that, no matter how much my emotions were saying to just run away from him.

But sometimes, just sometimes, things have to be done for the greater good for your future, and not only what good memories were made in the past. I felt as if I'd been suffocated for 4 years. Our freshman year of highschool was when we first met, through a mutual friend. However, we never knew it would ever lead us here, to where we are right now.

I was so innocent back then, and I never knew how to say anything to stand up for myself, but that, what he did... That was the last straw. It was good though, as bad as it was, a part of me was relieved that I saw him do it. If I hadn't, I don't know if I would ever even be able to speak up, and for that I thank my best friend Spencer.

She's known me since I was 5, and she's only 2 months younger than me, but much much wiser when it comes to relationships, without even ever being in one. I guess that makes sense though, that's how it is with most people like her. I never once understood that but, go off I guess.

Spencer and I have always wanted to go to the same university since we first talked about in grade 8. I know, I know, many people don't even think about university until they're in grade 12, but we were so excited. You see, since we didn't go to any schools together growing up, we always would look forward to this. Here it is now. We're proud to say that we represent the great Columbia university in NYC.

As cliche as it is, I always knew I wanted to live in NYC since I visited when I was 10 as a birthday gift. So when we found out that we both got accepted into Columbia, we called that night for 4 hours, and talked about everything, from posters, to careers we wanted to pursue.

I've treated Spencer as a sister, and it's always helped that she's lived right around the corner for the past 20 years of our lives.
I'm so so thankful for having her in my life, and could never ask for a better best friend. She helped me so much in that relationship as well, and she even helped me get out of it. My partner in crime I guess.

Okay, okay. Enough thinking about things, it's the first day of university, get out of the shower.

I quickly put on a pair of black see through stockings, and put a navy blue and white plaid skirt on top of that, which matches with my navy blue t-shirt which had a collar. I looked at myself in the mirror, then proceeded to go search for my coffee coloured throw on long coat, which reached just above my ankle high black boots.

I felt the need to eat something, rather than starve during my 2 hour classes, so I quickly made myself a smoothie and a piece of toast. Hey, if I'm hungry, I'm hungry.

I made some smoothie for Spencer as well, who was still in bed, and I told her to get up before she would be late. But I knew she wouldn't, she always manages to make it JUST on time. We now share a dorm, so we make sure to keep our dorm cleaned, along with another girl named Keeley. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to her yet, but right now I should get going, I prefer to be early rather than late.

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I finally reach my first class; English. I knew university would be big and have big classrooms, but 140 people in a class? That, I never knew. 10 minutes before class, people started running into the room to grab a seat, and that's when I saw Kelsey in the same class and I gave her a quick smile before she took a seat 2 rows from mine. Spencer walked in and I waved at her to come here, and she took a seat right beside me.

The professor walked in and everyone started taking their books out and stopped talking as much. As I was taking my books out and getting ready for class, I felt a presence walk in, but didn't bother looking, even though I felt all the heads turn, including Spencer's.

Oh boy...