Sing with your heart, Johnny x reader

Part 10

Your pove
I woke up feeling intense headage and dizzyness. I groaned. Processing what excactly happend. I fainted infront of Johnny and Rosita and felt embarresed. I was glad that Buster was not there to witness it. I soon noticed I was not in the rest room. Instead I was back in my room in bed. Someone must have carried me.
I felt the soft matress looking at the celling.

You might have guessed why I fainted. The gym was okay but I was too hard on myself. It was not Ryan's fault at all don't get me wrong on that. I just pushed to hard on myself. The pilars where too hard for me and everytime I lost balance. I thought the Yoga lessons might worked to you know, get better in it. I had a memory from the gym class.

Every time I tried the pilars I fell. The first onces where easy. The higher I went the more inbalenced I was. I was not afraid of heights. I just was not flexibel and that was something I struggeld with. Luckly Ryan had layed matrasses on the ground but still the fall is hard. I landed doesens of times on the matress on my left arm. But I was too stuborn. I needed to be perfect in my role. I needed to show them what I was made of and if I fail. If I fail...
I grunted standing up again looking at the highest pilar shining in the sunlight. It looks so easy but the reality is, it's not.
Before I started climbing again Ryan stopped me by grabbing my right arm gently.
"Stop." He said.
I only blinked at him confused.
"You've worked hard enough on yourself. Take a brake." He said.
He looked slyghtly worried even though he looked tough on the outside and doesent want to show it.
"I just started." I said.
"You look like a dying, painting mammot and a predator." He answerd. "You have a bruise on your arm and have not even once thought about taking a brake. You keep falling for like two hours I think this is enough. I don't want you to get enjured."
I sighed looking at the pilars.
"I just... need to do it." I said.
"You will do good one day. But not now. You need rest. Do you ever think on yourself?" He asked.
No.
I shook my head.
"I always strive to be good." I said. "Perfect.."
"You're too hard on yourself. You can't be good on your first day training. How about this, tomorrow I will set up an easy balance parcour and lets forget the pilars but focus on your flexibility alright?"
I nod feeling a bit dizzy.
"And take some rest. You are done for today." Ryan said.

I felt like a failure and Ryan was right I was to hard on myself. How can I be perfect if I can't learn how to balance? Nobody is perfect. I always have strived to be more then who I am now. I forgot to drink some water. When entering the rest room I felt dizzy seeing the worried expression of my boyfriend Johnny and Rosita. They were in shock. The last thing I rememberd before blacking out was Johnny picking me up.

Someone knocked on the door.
"Come in." I said.
I looked up seeing Buster.
He was clearly worried.
"Are you alright?" He asked.
"What happend?"
"It was not the teacher." I said defending him. "I was too hard on myself. I wanted to be perfect in my role but I am just... not flexibel and fell over and over again. And I just... just overworked myself. Ryan was brutaly honest to say to me if I ever think for myself..." I shook my head. "I am sorry Buster I failed you."
"Oh no don't say that Y/n. Your the best wonder our team ever had." He said.
I smiled a bit with tears.
"But Jerry is right, don't forget to think about yourself. Your health is important too."
I nod sad knowing my bad habbit off ceep doing it until you make it.
"Johnny..." I asked.
"Johnny carried you all the way here. He was stubborn to let you lay down on the floor." Buster said shaking his head.
I smiled at the thought of Johnny refusing to listen to anyone if someone is in danger. I felt butterflies in my stomach of the idea and blushed.
"He sure cares alot for you." He said.
"I know he does." I said smiling.
"Y/n take a day off. What are you going to do tomorrow with Ryan about this?" Buster said slyghtly nervous.
"Ryan wants to focus on my flexibelity and balance. He doesent want me to use the pilars for now."
"Thats great! Ceep doing your progress Y/n. We all struggel with something but it makes you stronger. Remember that." Buster said and left my room.
I sighed and looked at the city. I could have been better...