I wake up but I am blinded by the strong light of the sun, die sonne. I cover my eyes with my hand in a desperate attempt to keep whatever sight I have left. I get up off the grating, dry grass that I was previously sitting on, and lurch forward. I feel really nauseous, I'm used to it by now though. I have to be, don't I? I have to show Juniper that I'm worth his love. I have to be perfect, I want to show him that I'd do anything for him. Then I remember why I ended up in this ceaseless maze. I did it to prove that I'm worth his love. He doesn't deserve a weak boyfriend. He needs someone who is strong, fearless, brave and heroic as well as someone who is pretty, handsome and gorgeous. I've trained myself to become both. I haven't eaten properly in a week. I wanted him to have a perfectly skinny boyfriend. I want to be the best I can be. He deserves whatever he wants, even if that means giving up on everything just to please him. I needed to amplify the pain I was going through but I couldn't take that risk.
I can see smears of mud on my sleeves from laying down and rolling around before I woke up. I shudder at the thought of it being blood, because it most certainly will be later. I hope I don't die later on. I mean, I have somehow survived a long time without eating correctly. I can't die now, not after all this.
I needed Jun, I needed him. I love him. I love him so much I'd risk my life to complete a maze that was impossible to complete just for him.
