Will he

chapter 8 - I only exist to fall

note: this chapter contains both pov's so don't get confused midway, I will mark when each start, enjoy :)

Pov: Eliza

My eyes fluttered open, I felt a usual sense of comfort as I turn to see Elliot sitting right next to me. 

"Leo," I whined wondering why he was suddenly hugging me first thing in the morning, that's when the events of last night come flooding into my brain. 

"I wanted to be there for you when you woke up, lil sis." He reasoned and kissed me on my forehead, making me hug him tighter. 

When it comes to someone hurting me, Elliot being the overprotective brother he is tends to become 100 times more caring. 

"I need to end it with Zach, for good." I sigh, Elliot agrees and pulls himself out of my embrace. 

"I love you, but I know you have someone on your mind right now. He went out to get you something to eat, so after he gets back please just talk to him, he hasn't slept all night because he was so worried about you." Elliot smiles, I suppress my face in my pillow. 

He was right... I was thinking about Carter. Damn you, Elliot. 

"I'll be in my room if you need anything, talk to Carter. He cares about you, E." Elliot gives me a final hug and walks out of my room. 

I groan and get up, I can't help but feel so used. So disgusted the minute I see my reflection in the mirror. How fucking dare you, Zach. 

I brush my teeth, throw my hair into a bun, change into one of my hoodies & sweatpants... do the bare minimum and decide to get out of my room. 

The second I stepped out, my breath stopped midway as I look at the last person I thought I'd see. 

There he stood, Zach in the middle of my hallway. 

I couldn't even bring my eyes to meet his, I was beyond disappointed but actually not surprised. I had a feeling our whole relationship was going, to sum up to this one point one day, and that day is today. 

I didn't look at him, I couldn't, but the only word that came out of his mouth was sorry. 

Sorry doesn't fix anything, it can't help turn back time and make sure that it didn't happen. It can't help me go back and make the right fucking decision, and I can't help but think this whole thing was my fault, but no, it wasn't.

He moved a bit closer to me and I felt something twist in my gut, a new feeling that I've never felt towards him, hatred. 

It's like it's consuming me; I didn't want him touching me, not now, not ever. 

I did love him, I saw him try his best, fuck, I tried my best. It's not enough, I silently stood there apologizing to myself, I'm sorry Eliza. I'm sorry. 

I repeated it in my head trying to retrieve whatever is left of my sanity in there.

I wrap my arms closer towards my chest, I felt uncomfortable, "Give me another chance Eliza, please." he whispers and I felt my eyes screw shut at that phrase, how could he? 

Just as I begin to answer, I heard the main door open and a quick glance to my side to reveal Carter walking in.

I wanted to sigh in relief, I wanted to yell for help, I wanted to let out silent cries in his embrace but I didn't. 

Instead, I stood there like a stump and observed Carter, he walks in and stands in front of me not saying a word, not even acknowledging Zach's presence.