I want to starve myself
I want to slice off that thick wad of skin
I want to not look so fucking disgusting.
I want to cut more
I want to tear off my skin and cry until my eyes bleed
I want to rip out my eyes and intestines and stomach and die
I want to die
I want to be there for Zack
And Daniel
And Emily
And Gala
And everyone else that I met online
But I want to die
I hate myself
So much
DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND??? THIS IS HOW I FUCKING FEEL. I AM UGLY AND DISGUSTING AND NOTHING BUT A WORTHLESS FUCKING WHORE. I HATE MYSELF. I WANT TO DIE. I WANT TO BE HIT BY A CAR IN FRONT OF MY FUCKING SCHOOL BECAUSE I HURT SO FUCKING MUCH. I WANT TO CRY AND SOB AND SCREAM AND CUT. I JUST CANT ANYMORE.
