Allison POV, Third Season

chapter 1

I'm here, I can't move, I feel like I can't breath.
Please Allison, not now. Not now.
Just keep your mind under control.
In front of me there are Scott and Derek. They are fighting. not with each other, but with Boyd and another werewolf.
mountain ash delimit the room.
they can't escape. scoot can't escape.
For just one second Scott's eyes stop on mine. I can see the pain in them.
He is bleeding and I see out of the corner of my eye Derek fighting with the girl.
I have to do something, but what can i do?
I bend over to break the mountain ash's line.
"No, don't break the seal!" Derek screams.
I stop don't understanding what to do.
Boyd's claws are planted in scott's chest. Scott's eyes close. I can only see his blood coming from his mouth. I can't see him die and it's obvious Boyd wants to kill him. The full moon gives him just too strength.
"Boyd!" i said while breaking the seal.
Exactly in that moment the two of them run away out of sight.
Derek grabs my arm with anger and force me to step forward.
"Don't touch her!", I don't know how Scott even stands up.
"What were you thinking?" Derek leaves the grip
"That I had to do something" I couldn't stay here and watch them die.
"She saved our lives" says Scott. I think now that the adrenaline is gone, he feel the pain.
"Yeah and what do you think they're gonna do out there? Do you have any idea what we just set free?" I hate the way he thinks we are just some stupid random guys.
"You want to blame me? Well, I am not the one turning teenagers into killers." I say without thinking and I walk away.
"No. No, that's just the rest of your family" God I can't believe he just said that. I turn to him trying to stay calm while anger surge through my veins.
"I've made mistakes." I take a deep breath "Gerard is not my fault."
"and what about your mother?" Derek's words hit my heart
"What do you mean?" I shake my head slightly.
"Tell her scott" and my eyes go on him. His look firmly on the floor
"what does he mean, scott?" I start trembling
"What does he mean?" I force myself not to cry
This heartbreaking silence is interrupted by derek fast words "I bite your mother only because she was trying to kill scott"
I start shaking my head. On my face a nervous smile. Those words repeat in my head. She was trying to kill Scott. That can't be true. Derek goes away, I see scott's face turns to me. He doesn't say anything. I still shaking my head.
"She tried killing you" I say slowly
"yeah" Scott can't even look me in the eyes
"Why didn't you tell me"
"i'll tell you everything, okay? I'll tell you anything that you want to know but right now"
"just tell me why" I interrupt
"i couldn't" I'm trying hide my emotion but I'm sure he can read the pain in me, "Allison i couldn't let that be the last memory that you had of her"
I can't talk, I'm petrified. Scott's face changes in surprise and i turn around to see what it is looking at.
Erika. They found Erika's corpse. Derek has her on his arms. His look's empty.
"I'm so sorry" I'm holding back my tears.
Derek don't say anything, I think he's thinking where leave her so someone can find her. Her family is not around, but she deserves a funeral.
Derek start walking, but Scott can't move.
I give scott my back but i'm sure his eyes are still on me full with sadness. I don't want his pity.
"Just go away" I repeat. I turn around and force myself to smile "Seriously I'm fine, go and find them"
They go away.
Everything becomes black and I don't let myself think till i'm in my car.
But I cannot escape from my thoughts.
I've never agreed with my mom's ideas but I loved her and i still do. But she was trying to kill Scott.
Scott.
The kind guy who wants always make the good decision.
The guy who never wants those powers. The guy who found himself in this mess and had the strength to not run away.
And what if Derek wouldn't have make it in time? How many times I've desired that. My mom would have still alive, but what about Scott?
One tear wet my check. I dry out with the back of my hand.
I'm not that. I'm not a normal girl and I'll never be. I've been trained to maintain the control over my emotions.
I cover my face with the palms of my hands. "Breath Allison, just breath".
I put my hands on the wheel. Breath in, breath out.
I can't be there thinking about my mom knowing two werewolves, that I let go, are now outside trying to kill every human being they meet on their ways.
I want to be useful. I need to be useful.
I open the dashboard and I take the arrow head I put there like six months ago.
I just need my crossbow.
And I'm gonna take it.