I Can't Be Me

Sunny and Lily

Idol Kim Taesoo mentions his depression in an outlandish interview, receiving criticism from fans!

Idol Kim Taesoo admitted to the hospital for exhaustion!

Idol Kim Taesoo cries during interviews after hospital scandal!

Idol Kim Taesoo is seen out with idol bestie Jeon Jeongguk after hospital controversy!

"Hyung, did you enjoy the museum?" Jeongguk asked his best friend Taesoo, who was lying in bed almost as quiet as a church mouse as he laid next to him. He clicked article after article of news outlets bashing him for speaking out about having a hard time. Crying in interviews, back and forth outta the ER, his entire image was being ruined.

"Hyung?" Jeongguk called to him once again, interrupting his thoughts.

"Oh, huh?" There was a quick pause from Taesoo, before he answered, "Yeah, um thanks for taking me out Jeonggukie, I'm sorry about the cameras I know it was supposed to just be me and you."

"Hyung, it's alright you know? We're famous." Jeongguk laughed but he was alone with his laughter, because Taesoo's mind was miles away.

"Right." He finally responded.

Jeon Jeongguk had a problem.

That problem was Kim Taesoo. They had been friends for as long as he could remember. But as soon as Taesoo got really popular with his new EP, things started to spiral. He went from this very social butterfly to never wanting to leave his house, and was now getting negative attention by the media.

Once, he mentioned how sad he felt most days in a very public interview, he was attacked by the same people who claimed to love him, making him cry and run off set. He got laughed at, mocked and ever since he was different to Jeongguk, no longer his bubbly, happy-go-lucky self. He barely smiled, He didn't shave, and hated the outside world.

Being attacked as an idol was nothing new; both of them dealt with it daily but somehow knowing that it hurt Taesoo so much more than him, made Jeongguk want to protect him even more. He felt determined to get his Taesoo back, even if it meant forcing him outside every now and then.

"Hyungie, wanna go bike riding?" He asks, as Taesoo cuddles right near his neck.

"Hmm?" His pink hair is all over his chest, he's breathing evenly against him, but he doesn't answer the question.

"Kim Taesoo," Jeongguk never calls him by his full name, that's how Taesoo knows he's serious, "If you want me to fight the world for you just say so. I will."

"You're so sweet," Taesoo just shakes his soft pink head, "No it's okay. I think I'm just too overworked. I've been working for most of my young life, all I want now is a break. My company suspended all of my activities but.."

"But?"

"I'm exhausted Jeonggukie."

"I know you are." He caressed his arm, "That's why it's good to take this break. Revive your love of your art and find your happiness again."

His gentle fingers surrounded Taesoo's face and slowly watched those clear brown eyes stare back at him. He's never cared for anyone more, it was crazy how quickly it changed from an innocent friendship to wishing that he could tell him that he was so crazy in love with him, that he was sure the world would stop spinning without him.

Ugh, he had it bad.

"You're right, Jeonggukie I need to find my love again," He exhaled, then turned over.. thinking about it.

He pouted, looking out at the window from the bed, he could hear a car beep in the distance, and the sound of young college kids passing below. It was then suddenly, a light bulb had gone off in his head, and Taesoo got an idea. He jumped out of bed and started to smile.