Abstruse [Chanyeol-EXO Fanfiction]

First page of my diary

Chanyeol POV

The stage is too crowded. I love this feeling, love being here right now and love being myself. They are yelling my name, they love me and they will forever, right? I don't need anything more. This is enough for me...

In the past
School sucks. They, again, are laughing at my ears and my low voice. They follow me down the hall and can't stop laughing. OMG I really DISLIKE them. Can they just shut up? Why those kiddos care too much about my appearance? They get on my nerves all the time and sometimes I just want to punch them in their face, but I don't have to. Because I know that one day they will regret about it.

Mom wakes me up early every Sunday so I can have enough time to prepare for church. I don't even know why I have to dress up so nicely. Mom said you need to look nice so you can impress the girls at church. "Do I look like I care about them, mom?". No! Then my sister yells "He only cares about Dara", she is saying it again...

It's a rainy day. The church is the same for every week, but it's different this time. I have never seen that girl here. She looks attractive and... pretty. What should I do? I want to talk to her so badly. She is walking toward me. I can't breath. "Hi, can I sit here?", is she talking to me? Yes, she is Chanyeol! Wake yourself up and answer her! "Yeah, of course, not why? I mean, why not?" Stupid Chanyeol! "What's your name?" What did she just say? "What did you just say?" "What's your name?" "Oh, Park Chanyeol" breath Chanyeol breath. "I'm Megan!" " Nice to meet you, Megan". It's a beautiful name and she is too. But now it becomes awkward. I don't know what to say. What happen to you Chanyeol? You are always so active, but why can you say something? I lost my chance. After that day, she doesn't come and talk to me anymore. Stupid Chanyeol, stupid, stupid, stupid.... I wish I can repeat that word again and again.

In present
"Can you tell us about your first love story?" My first love story? Is it about Megan? Should I talk about Megan here on the radio show? I still remember her, remember her beautiful smile. The words just come out of my mouth without control "Of course, there is a girl who used to come to my church. I like her from the first sign, but I couldn't talk to her. I still really like her. Her name is... Megan". Suddenly D.O asks me "I have never heard you talk about that girl". That's true. I have never told anybody about Megan but now since I'm famous maybe I can find her, my first love. "I didn't talk about her because I know that you would fall in love with her right after that" that answer makes D.O look at me like what the heck are you talking about. It's fun though. The host now asks D.O "So D.O, what type of girl do you like?". Hurry up and answer it D.O! I want to hear your answer. But I think I've already known the answer; he probably likes somebody who is pretty like Miss Korean but shorter so he can hug her. I'm laughing in my mind until D.O's answer breaks the silence in the room, "I like girl who can eat a lot, so I can cook for her, not the one who always tries to stay so skinny". "Wow" did I just say it out loud? Yes, I did. He really likes that type of girl? I feel so curious now. Who will it be?

It's raining so hard outside which makes me remember the first day I met Megan. I miss her and I really do. She didn't go to my church anymore after three months. I wish that she can hear the radio show today and remember me. "Hey Chanyeol, tell me more about that girl!". D.O looks so cute when he is being curious. His eyes wide open like a little kid who wants to know why the moon always follow him. "There is nothing much to say. It's a secret and one side love." My answer can't make his curious face disappear. "So where is she right now, Chanyeol?" This guy is being serious about this. I really want to answer his question, but I myself can't even answer it. "I don't know, D.O"

The rest of the group comes out. "What takes you guys so long?" I hate waiting. "Calm down Chanyeol, not everybody has long legs like you." Dang Baekhyun, okay, fine, you got me this time and I'll just shut up from now then. It's time to go. We have to run to the van even it's raining because we don't want to be late. I'm still mad at Baekhyun but I know that I can't be mad for long. He'll probably say something stupid on the way which will make me laugh like death. I look outside the window. It's still raining. And again, it reminds me of Megan. Where are you right now?

Rose POV

Last week was the student week of prayer, people were talking about friendship, protection, direction,... And a main idea for Friday was changing. People are changing every day, every hour, every second.. Even your breath is not the same for each time. Changing helps you in improving yourself and also directs you to where you suppose to be. I still remember this month, last year, I was a new student, went to school every day without talking to anybody. And last year, I didn't know that I would be here in the United States.

Things change every moment in your life and even little things matter. When I was in elementary school, day by day, I wished I could be taller so I could see what my parents and my sister put upper the closet. I couldn't wait to ask my dad when can I go to the dentist to get my tooth out. First grade was quiet, I like my teacher so much, she was so nice to me. Second grade, I had a problem with going to school. The summer before I went to school, I had to stay at my uncle's house because my house was fixed and I didn't have a lot of time with my mom. I cried so badly for the first week. It's funny because I'm the only kid who didn't cry for first grade, but cried for second grade. Fourth grade is the only school year that I'm not happy about. I didn't do my homework and my grades dropped off. I quitted everything. But fifth grade changed my life, my teacher helped me a lot in knowing the truth me. I love math and until now I still love math. Loving math helps me knowing that there is still something that I can "solve".

I came to America to study two years ago and got adopted. I am now basically an American. My life has been worse since I got here. Everything is so hard that I myself can barely handle it. There was a time that I felt so alone and that is when I came to love K-pop. I'm not a Korean, I don't understand what they sing but their music does help me feel a lot better. I like Beast after listen to their songs; they can actually sing, not like the others who just have pretty faces. And then I like EXO after seeing Chanyeol in Roommate. He makes me realize that even they are not your family, they can still love you, care about you. He is different from the others; he didn't try to get a girl or try to be cool. He is being himself. Sometimes even that he's too confident that it becomes awkward, but that is the truth him so it's cool. Most of the idols will answer that they are not pretty, but Chanyeol believes that he is the most handsome guy in EXO and that little cute thing makes him become famous.

My friends call me crazy for liking the guys who look pretty like girls and try to be cute all the time. Well, I don't care about what they are saying. When you like something that can make you happy, then keep it and ignore when they judge.

Today is the day that my top college will email me if I get accepted. I couldn't even eat breakfast this morning because I'm so nervous right now. What if I don't get accepted? What if I have to go to the school that I don't even like? I applied for Korea University as my top college; I love Korea the country itself and also the people. Suddenly, an email came in. It's from Korea University... " Rose, congratulations! You got accepted from Korea University...". OMG!! I can't believe this; I got accepted from my top college and I'm jumping on my bed right now.

I bought the flight ticket right after that; I can't wait anymore. Packing will be a big problem to me since I don't know where to start. Well, I'll try to throw everything in that huge suitcase and hope it'll fit. However, it's not time for me to pack my stuff yet, it's time for me to tell everybody that I just got accepted from my top college "yeahhhhhhhh!!!!!!" Let's see... I'll tell my whole family first which also includes relative like cousins, aunts, uncles, cousins again, and my far far far relative too! Wmahahahaha I feel so evil, right now for making them jealous. But who care? I'm going to Korea. I'm on my way which lead to my dream. :)