Little Toy Guns (OHSHC Kyoya Fanfic)

Pain

Lyrics;
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you'll understand

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know)
I know that you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
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Kito's POV
I unlocked the bathroom door after calling William and saying I needed him at Ouran Academy as soon as possible. I ran straight past my parents and the hosts. William had said he was in the neighborhood, so he could be there in only a few minutes. It had taken a few minutes to get to the front of the school, so I didn't even have to wait for Will.

I got in the vehicle and locked the doors. Will looked at me, concern filled his yellow and green eyes. "What's wrong?" He asked, but I couldn't tell him. "Nothing," I said automatically, followed by, "Why were you in the neighborhood?" He tried to smile a little, "I took the limo to get waxed." Will was really a dedicated worker. I smiled, "Can you take me to the hair salon?" He seemed a little confused, but nodded nonetheless. As he drove, I decided what I would do. I pulled out my phone and texted one of the maids, Mey, to get me some blue contacts. I didn't say why, but she wouldn't ask. I looked up and we were at Hairousel, a nice little hair salon near the school.

~The Next Day at School~

I had dyed my hair obsidian black (A/N:There ARE different shades of black. The three darkest are obsidian, raven, and ebony. In order from darkest of the dark.) and I had in dark blue contacts. I felt like a whole new person. I wore a dark outfit and cap. My hair was a little shorter now, but it still had it's choppy look. I was getting weird looks. I don't think anyone recognized me. I wasn't forced to talk to anyone. I could keep to myself.

At the end of the day I strolled down to Music Room 3. I opened the door and received a flirt from Tamaki, a dropped bunny from Hunni, a slight gasp from Mori, double trouble confusion from the twins, and a glasses push up from Kyoya. I think Kaoru was the only one to recognize me. He walked up to me, examined my hair and eyes before mumbling a quiet, "Kito?" I nodded slightly, seeing as how no one had heard him say my name. Even Kyoya seemed rather clueless.

Kaoru hugged me tight, "Why?" I looked down, "I can't handle being me anymore. The pressure was too much. I needed a change. I'm sorry, ani." Kaoru ran his hand through my choppy hair, "Brother?" I nodded, "You're a brotherly figure to me." Kaoru smiled, "You can change your appearance but you're still lil' sis Kito." The smile on his face told me everything was okay no matter what.

I wanted to smile, but I was honestly starting to go numb to everything but the pain I was feeling. I guess I'll have to use my little fake to get by. I threw on my artificial smile. Kaoru frowned, "You can't fool me that easily. I'm not stupid." I bit my lip and looked down. Tears welled up in my eyes. I bit my lip harder, causing blood to dribble down my lip. I had bit down harder than I thought. I saw a couple drips hit the ground. Crimson beads of pain. The pain brought a sting of reality. I came back from my numbness to realize Kyoya was standing in front of me.

Kyoya delicately lifted my head up, examining the blood flowing from my lip, "You bite hard. That much is obvious." I couldn't tell if he was joking or not, but I let out a little chuckle. Kyoya was slightly shocked by my laughter. I wiped the blood from my lip with my sleeve, "I'm okay. I just wanted to say hi. I guess I will leave now. Bye."

Why had Kyoya tried to help me? Kao-chan obviously had me under control. Did Kyoya care? Thinking if a caring Kyoya made my heart flutter. What? What made that happen? Was it a crush? Did I have a crush on Kyoya? If I did, I needed to get over it quick. He doesn't truly care about most people. He certainly wouldn't care about me.

I sighed and walked to the limo, in which William was waiting for me. I got in and flashed a smile. Will seemed to be in a good mood. "Someone is happy," I said with a smile. Will nodded, "I'm going on a date with a guy I knew back in shini- high school." I had known about William being bisexual for a while. I was happy for him, whoever he liked. "What's his name?" I asked, smiling. It was hard not to smile around Will. Will smiled, "Grell. Grell Sutcliff." "Interesting name," I commented. Will nodded, "He's an interesting person. So, are you going to run any errands today?" I shook my head and turned up the radio. 3-Kakan No Yūyo was on. It was their song Itami (A/N: nudge nudge) I smiled. I related to the song.

I dozed off, listening to the radio. I wasn't really dreaming, so I was floating on the border of consciousness. I could hear things around me and feel everything, but I wasn't fully awake or aware. I felt myself be lifted up and held against a warm body. I opened my eyes and saw William carrying me. I just closed my eyes and let him carry me to my room. Even if he knew I was awake, he would insist on carrying me.

When he laid me on my bed and covered me up, I let a small smile on my face. Will was a nice guy. He had saw the emotional damage I had. I guess that's why he was so nice to me. I smiled and went into a deeper sleep. All that mattered was good dreams.