2 years. it has been two full years since ken met stell at that night festival. stell had such a huge impact on him that he couldn't stop thinking about him for days. suddenly, days turned into weeks, until he finally got in touch with him.
they started talking, hanging out, calling and texting each other for hours and hours of the day; and later on, hang-outs grew to romantic dates. well, yes, they did date. they kissed, they made out, they laughed, they cried, they fought, they made up, and of course, they made love.... a lot... and they both loved every part of the process and worshipped every part of each other's being.
"oh god, that was so good."
and now, just like every time that they would meet, they had made love once again.
the skies were starting to be painted with shades of pink and orange and such beautiful warm colors. sadly, the sunset also signifies that they had to go on separate ways once again.
"uwi ka na?" ken asked, hugging the brunette man by his waist who was already sitting on the edge of the bed, putting on his socks.
"yeah, i have to. pauwi na si paulo. ikaw? 'di ka ba hinihintay ni justin?"
ken groaned, rolling to the other side of the bed. he landed his face right onto the mattress.
"hinihintay. pero ayoko pa umuwi." he said, his voice being muffled by the sheets.
stell chuckled, holding the other's hand.
"umuwi ka na. let's just see each other again next time."
"at kelan naman yung next time?" ken asked, turning his head to the side so he could face stell again.
the other shrugged, "we'll see."
ken sat on the bed, pulling stell after so he could sit on his lap. he held stell by his waist, gently brushing his thumb against the other's delicate skin. stell smiled, planting a kiss on ken's bare shoulder which made the younger smile as well.
he cupped stell's face before pulling him close—just close enough to let their lips touch while their heart beats sync with one another.
"i love you." ken whispered, his lips grazing along stell's.
stell closed his eyes, leaning in to make their foreheads touch.
"i love you more, ken."
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it's a whole lot of mess, i know.
this is not your usual fluffy lovestory that's filled with ease, butterflies, and colorful rainbows.
this is a story of doing unfaithful things in the name of love.
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as stell opened the door of their house, he noticed how dark it was inside. only the light in the dining room illuminates the area. he walked further inside until he reached their room where he sees his gorgeous husband sleeping soundly on the bed. paulo was flopped on the bed, his hair and clothes crumpled, too tired to even make a move to tidy himself up.
paulo and stell have been married for seven years. it has been a rough path, but they do get along well.
or do they really?
stell had noticed how paulo still has his corporate attire on. he hasn't even had the chance to remove his shoes before lying down on the bed. and so stell does that for him.... like always. he gently walked towards paulo, removed his shoes, his socks, his coat, and his tie, only leaving him with a white polo and his black pants. stell also removed paulo's belt so that the other could sleep comfortably. he didn't want to wake him up but nevertheless, paulo still did.
"hello, mahal." pau greeted in his raspy voice, extending his arms in the air, mentally telling his husband that he wants to cuddle.
stell smiled and almost hesitated at first but the softness in his heart for his husband just couldn't resist how adorable the other is. and so stell lied down beside him, engulfing paulo in a warm embrace where the other feels safer.
"i missed you. sorry ang busy ko sa work lately." pau murmured.
he had been working 10 hours a day to meet ends. he's been doing really well in their company plus, the pay is actually great, but the job is draining him so much to the extent that he lost a lot of weight for the past 6 months, after he got his promotion.
stell's chest aches at that. it wasn't exactly paulo's fault that they haven't had much time for each other for the past few weeks. it was also for the reason that stell was, undeniably, cheating on paulo.
"it's fine, mahal." stell said, planting a gentle kiss on paulo's soft black and white hair. "i've missed you so much more."
again, stell's heart aches. he couldn't remember how and when did he start lying like this to his husband but as the situation shows, he knows he's being too much.
"uhm, do you want to go out next week? para makapagpahinga ka naman. my treat." stell asked, gently combing the other's hair with his fingers.
paulo nodded and smiled, "i'd like that."
stell looked down on him and they locked in stares. the other leaned forward, attaching his lips onto the other. it wasn't too long after that and their lips were already moving, perfectly fitting each other's mold.
but as paulo hovers on top of stell, sinful memories suddenly flashed in the other's mind and unconsciously, he lightly pushed paulo from him. paulo, not noticing stell's sudden move, began to trail wet kisses down the other's neck, leaving little love bites, which stell used to love a lot.
but now... all he could remember was the feel of the other's kiss, the other's touch, and how he made him feel good.... so good for him to be able to think about him while making out with his husband.
stell was thinking of ken.
"p-pau.. pau, wait lang..." stell said, making the other stop from what he was doing. paulo lightly panicked, immediately sitting beside the other while holding his hands.
"what's wrong? are you hurt or something? was i being too much? i'm so sorry, mahal. i didn't-"
"no, no, shh... it's okay, m-mahal. ano lang... i'm just... i'm not in the mood right now." stell's voice faded, his head slightly bowing low.
paulo gently cupped his face, lifting up his head to meet his gaze once again.
"it's okay, mahal. naiintindihan ko."
"thanks, pau. uhm, cr lang ako."
stell stood up but before he could walk away, paulo held his hand.
"hey, i love you so much. you know that, right?"
the other was left dumbfounded. the pounding in his chest increased as his throat ran dry. nevertheless, he faked a smile and nodded.
"i know. i love you too, mahal."
paulo smiled and stell walked away, locking himself in the bathroom. he looked at his reflection in the mirror before his eyes went down to his hand.
stell took his time admiring the gold-plated ring on his finger which has the initials SVA and JPN engraved on it.
a tear escaped stell's eyes as he realizes how much it would affect paulo and their relationship if he ever finds out what he was doing behind his back.
and he regrets it...
... but he couldn't find it in him to stop.
