I'm not a monster. I'm just a mother.

The "Normal" mother

Love. I thought that it didn't existed for me. But when she born, i felt like... I just knew i loved her more than anything. I named her, Hiachi. I tried my best just for her and only her, when my husband left me, I thought that was the end and that was it. But she, SHE saved me. I know I might not be the perfect mother, but I only did it because of my daughter, Hiachi.

As I smile, I thought to myself "Such beautiful day today!!" I knew it'd be a nice day but..Once that had happen'd I felt..I felt HURT.

I didn't let it get too me so, I just kept walking and walking to pick berries. While picking, I saw a small cabin. I went to see if anyone was there, but I saw a doll that looked a little sad. But while looking at it, "I think My little Hiachi would like this!" so I picked it up and just kept walking. As I went in, my daughter greeted me. "Mommy is home! Yay!" she said "yes yes I'm here now" I said "Hiachi, darling I have a gift for you. Then I pulled out the doll and I gave it to her. She gasped as she looked at the beautiful doll then I asked her "what would you like to name her?" I said "shaku" she said, then again I felt more HURT.

I kept hitting things, breaking them one by one! While I did that, she was just there. Watching in fear of what's happening. She just stood there, with her doll. I looked at mirror and saw someone but, it wasn't me. "No no no no, that's..that's not me it's..NOT ME". After that there it was just broken, like it never was there before. I just stood there while, she was terrified. I thought to myself" I shouldn't have done that no no..." then I hugged her tightly as she then cries. I had a disorder but I knew I shouldn't stop it from hurting me or her.

As days go by people from our town spread gossips and rumors about me, about how they think i became insane. They said "She probably went crazy because her husband left!" or either "Maybe she went crazy then killed her husband" those rumors just make me feel..sick.

One day, I went to pick more berries while Hiachi was just playing alone. Then I saw a very beautiful sakura tree but the thing was it was by itself "why is it here alone?" i asked, then I saw that evil witch, I knew I shouldn't have trusted her but I trusted her for what? She then asked " what is your wish.." there again I felt going crazy. I broke down in front of her, she then giggled while I was still breaking down just there, going crazy and...stupid. As I stopped she then asked me once more "what is your wish" but this time I answered. "I just want to be a normal mother to my daughter and I want her to grow up without me being a total disaster" she then gave me a butterfly a very pale and white butterfly, then she told me to crush the butterfly and consume it. I did what she told then my stomach hurt more than ever. As that happen'd I saw that there was another me...the evil me. Everything disappeared or should I say went to black but the last thing I saw was Hiachi happily playing her doll then all gone.

I never wanted to be a bad mother, I never wanted to be crazy, she controlled me to be like this I just...wanted to be a good mother to my dear Hiachi before I die.