Amnesia >> M.C

VII

- Infinity's POV -

We've been touring for over a month now, and it has been gong fabulous! Ashley and I have been having such a great experience on this tour, after all this is the biggest tour we've ever been on, and even though Michael and I have our.. dysfunctional past, I uess you could say, we've actually started being nicer to each other.

Right now we're in a hotel in Japan, taking a small rest of shows and interviews, since everyone has been working their butts off since the tour started. Right now I'm not doing much, just trying to get a hold of my current boyfriend Andy, who had texted me telling him to skype with him.I havent talked to him much since I've been gone, we've only skyped a few times and text each other a minimum of ten times a day. I bite gently a my bottom lip as I wait for him to answer, the ringing getting annoying as the minutes flew by, but he didnt answer. Instead, he sent me a small DM.

'We're over. You barely even talk to me anymore. You're always gone. I've found someone else. Don't talk to me, and delete my number okay?'

My cheeks flared red in anger, but yet my eyes swelled with slight tears. Even though I knew that Andy and I don't - well, didn't - make the greatest couple in the world, he was really all I had, even though he cheated on me constantly. We accept the love we think we deserve, I guess I didn't deserve his if he was just going to leave me, just like everyone else did.

I don't reply to his message, instead I just close my laptop and lie down in my bed. My knees come upto my chest as I lie down on my side, turing myself into a small ball. Tears continued to threaten to fall from my eyes, but I held them in the best that I could. My body vibrated with urge of sobbing and I started to hold my breath that way no sound escaped my lips. I've never felt so broken in a long time, but yet this still doesnt compare to how I felt after Michael broke up with me. Nothing will ever compare to that.

I closed my eyes as a lone tear rolled down my cheek and a shuddering breath escaped my lips. Why is it that with every relationship I get myself into, I always managed to screw it up? Why can't I conquer love? Is love even real? If it is, why can't I find it and actually keep it, for once in my life? As I got sucked into my thoughts tears started to flow from my eyes as soft, sobbing sounds escaped my lips. I was so caught up in my mind, that I didn't even notice the bed shift on one side as more weight was added to it as someone laid down behind me, and wrapped their arms gently around me.

"Are you okay Finn?" I finally snapped out of my thoughts as Michael's voice rang in my ears like a symphony.

I shook my head as I turned around before resting my head on is chest, not caring if this seemed like a little much. I always felt safe in his arms, always felt like someone was really there for me when he held me, and that feeling still stands today, even though I lost the right to even be near him; Never mind sobbing to him.

- Michael's POV -

Despite the fact that the lads and I had our own seperate hotel room from the girls, we were all hanging out in their room, watching movies and just having a nice calm day.

"Where's Finn?" I asked Ashley softly as she was cuddling with Ashton, since the two of them have assemlbed a nice 'cuddle buddy partnership'
"She's back in the bedroom, probably skyping her family or something." Ashley shrugged her shoulders.

I nodded my head, deciding that maybe I could go check up on her. I carefully stood up from my spot on the couch and made my way across the small living room area, down a tiny hallway, to a closed door. As I was about to knock on it, I heard soft sobs from behind the door, and slowly cracked it open to see Infinity all curled up on her bed, crying to herself.

I quietly walked into the room after closing the door behind me, and crawled into the bed before lying own behind her and wrapping my arms around her small frame. I always loved holding her, and ever since the beginning of the tour we've been building up a new form of friendhsip,so I thought that maybe now would be a great time to hold her.

"Are you okay Finn?" I spoke softly and watched as se seemed to be snapped out of her thoughts. My grip around her waist just seemed to tighten as she turned hrself around and started to sob into my chest. I havent seen her cry in such a long time, the last time being the day that we broke up, and even though it's been a couple of years it still hurts to see such a wonderful person shed such sad tears.

"Shhh Finn, it's okay." I whispered to her comfortingly as one of my hands moved up from her waist and started to rub her back gently as soft sobs continued to rack through her system. She's been through a lot in her life, I already knew a majority of her personal and past life from when we were dating, and I know that she's a pretty strong person. One of the strongest I've ever had the chance to know. She doesnt deserve to be so sad, she didn't deserve to endore what she had gone through in the past, but she's my little soilder for being so strong and sticking through it.

"Thank you Mikey." She whispered into my chest, her voice practcally inaudioble as she calmed down. "I really needed that."

I smiled softly down at her as I nod my head. "No problem Finn." I said as I slowly started to sit up and unwrap my arms from around her, but she stopped me.

"C-Could you.... Could you stay with me, please? Just for a little while longer." She whispered to me once more, a small spark of hope showing brightly in her eyes. I instantly nodded my head as my grip around her waist tightened once more and I laid back down with her. We havent been this close to each other in whats felt like forever, and I've honestly missed it. Even though I've already slept with multiple groupies or other girls during this tour, none of them can compare to her, to her touch, to her kisses, to her presence. I know I promised I wouldn't fall in love with her again, but I just can't seem to restrain myself. She's like a sunrise, she's so beautiful and bright that you just want to watch her forever, you jwant each moment with her there to last. To me, our old romance is slowly sparking back to life, I hope she can forgive me for letting her go though.