Only Human

Forgiveness

I would like to make special notes for this. I finished Monster not too long ago. I was so grabbed by Johan and Anna, that I did a lot of research and assessed deeply into everything given to us. That being said, a lot of MY THEORIES are being implemented into this fanfiction.

Some of them are:

1. How did Johan have the Nameless Monster book as a kid? = because they were experimented on right when they were born. Thus, Anna and him attended book readings.
2. Going into depth in why Johan killed the Lieberts.
3. Everything Johan did, including wanting to wipe off his existence from the world, was for Anna. I wrote an in depth essay on tumblr - you can find it under username xPrincessGarnetXVI.
4. Exploring how Anna was able to shoot her own twin brother to begin with.

I took a lot of elements from the novel Another Monster and implemented it to this story.
For instance, they shed light on a strong Twin Telepathy shared between Anna and Johan. They held actual conversations while Johan was being held in Kinderheim 511. Which makes sense since Anna was always able to "tell what Johan was doing when she was not in the room with him." So I explored that a bit.

The novel made it clear that Johan loved Anna more than anything in the world.
They also make it evident that Johan was not some supernatural devil, anti-christ but just a broken human being. I mean, I assumed the show conveyed that clearly but apparently a lot of people did not grasp that same sentiment.

Another Monster also depicts that Tenma had saved the monster and made him human again. There is also hints that Johan escaped from the hospital and lived his life normally. So, in this piece I will depict that notion in its entirety - he doesn't HAVE the need to kill and feels as close to human as he possibly can. He is free from his demons. But that doesn't mean he will be capable of expression or understanding emotions. But it is a start.

I really wanted to explore the more human side of him and the only person I feel he would ever be able to share that with is Anna/Nina.

This was hard, as we never get to see inside of Johan's head in the series. So writing this piece directly from his point of view was challenging and I am a bit insecure that I did not grasp his change/rebirth as close to canon as possible. I would assume that after everything, his mind would be in complete disarray. So his thought process wanders - but I assume he lived his life in such a manner everyday anyways.

So PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW I DID AND HOW I CAN IMPROVE. I PLAN TO WRITE MORE! THANK YOU!