ILYT BAD

I might need you or I'll break

[ MULTI POV - Skeppy ]

I woke up in my bedroom, the same empty feeling on my heart. Once I sat up on bed I remembered when I Broke up with Bad Two days ago, and we had announced it on stream. We were still living together and would hang out off stream and on stream just because we wanted to keep a healthy friendship.. It had always sucked, you know— not being affectionate with him like 'that'. I grab my towel and enter the bathroom, wanting to take a shower. I felt the water hit my chest lightly, I was thinking about Bad again— about how he'd be there for me, dating or not. Though he'd become more isolated and easily angered towards me after the breakup— but tries not to. I put on my Shirt after I wore my pants, I ignore the loud sirens coming from outside. I checked my phone to see what time it was, I was hoping not to stream today— it was 10 am, I sighed as I placed my phone in my pocket. I went outside seeing there was food already on the Dining Table. Bad was watching something on the television and didn't bother to say 'good morning' or 'hi' towards me, So I quickly ignore him and eat breakfast. I scrolled through twitter, seeing SkepHalo Broken up tweets and Fan arts with some messages under it saying they still love us or whatever. I sighed quietly thinking Bad saw this today and Just chose to ignore me. He must be having it hard huh? I felt guilt creeping up on me and shut my phone as quickly as I could. "I'm gonna go stream" Bad announced towards me, "Okay, I'll be there in a bit." I spoke. "Okay" Bad smiled, He then proceeded to go in his room. Moments after I finished breakfast I heard him say "Hi Stream! Today we're playing Garlic phone with some of my friends!" I hurriedly ran to my room and joined the call. There were 'hi skep' 'hi' 'hello' 'welcome' as I entered the call. Then we played gartic phone, Everyone was laughing as we were done with Bad's Album. We moved on To Tina's Album and I laughed nervously as the others laughed loudly— I couldn't hear bad's Voice at all. Tina's prompt was 'Skeppy and Bad kissing' She must've not heard about the break up at all, considering she was invited to different streams half the time.

"Bad click the screen again" Karl, Dream and Punz said this in different ways. Then it had clicked but bad was still quiet. It had Kept clicking and I wanted to go Check up on Bad. "Guys— I'm gonna go pee" I told the others. "Alright- Bad don't click it yet! Let's wait for your boyfriend" Tina teased him. I got out of my room and walked into Bad's, He had his head on both of his hands as he sat on The chair— he had muted himself. "Bad?" I called out. He turned to see me, He was smiling— "You Okay?" I asked him, "yeah sorry— I didn't notice I was muted the whole time!" He laughed. He wasn't muted- But I let it go, I quickly rush towards my room as we continued playing Garlic phone.

The stream lasted for about Two?, Maybe Three hours. I was tired so I went on my phone as I lay in bed. I went back to twitter seeing Tina Had posted something, I quickly Tap on it and read the whole tweet— It was an Apology Letter from her. What could she have possibly done wrong? The tweet said ;

'I absolutely Did Not know that Bad And Skeppy were broken up. I'm so sorry for my ignorance and lack of knowledge for the time being.. I didn't notice that Bad was heavily uncomfortable with this topic until after Stream. I was off of Social Media for about two weeks now and Just came back in when Bad Invited me to Join a game for stream, I didn't have enough time to watch the stream where they announced that they had broken up. As I said I took a break and got away from social media as far as I could. I'm really terribly sorry :('

I felt light headed reading that, Were they cancelling Tina for not knowing about the break up? Before I could make a reply about it— Bad had Posted a new tweet. The tweet read ;

' Tina was off and away from Social media, she had announced that five days before we streamed. People get tired from Streaming and doing work, She didn't know and Besides— It was Both My life and Skeppy's Life. And I mean sure, over a thousand people watched the stream and the clip channels but not everyone has time for that. The world does NOT revolve around Skeppy and I. I was only quiet because I thought my mic wasn't muted for an hour before someone asked me if something was wrong. '

I didn't need to reply to this, knowing that Bad made all the points he could. Karl had a new tweet, It was off topic but people got excited by this. In his tweet he wrote that He was gonna be doing an IRL stream with Bad, Me, Quackity, Sapnap, Dream and George. We had talked about it for months now and we were finally gonna do it, I thanked myself for Dream doing a face reveal three months ago so this could finally happen.

That was Three days ago now we reached the place where we were meeting up, Bad held my hand and soon let go when he remembered we were broken up. Tina had Started Streaming and The room was filled with laughs, we were in a Mansion rented out By Dream. The stream was going really well until we were doing some truth or Horribly Spicy chicken/Dare or Spicy chicken. Big props To Quackity as it was his idea. We had started at 6 pm— it was now currently five Am. Dream, George, Quackity and Karl have eaten Chickens. When the wheel had spun and landed on my name the chat had chosen dare or Spicy Chicken. "Ohhh Oh my gawd Skeppy ouh skeppy" Quackity spoke in his horrible British accent.

I had checked Chat and saw "Kiss Badboyhalo" It was a thread of Spamming and I really didn't like the fact that It was either that or Spicy chicken, I rolled my eyes. Suddenly Karl looked at the camera, "I just read chat— Listen chat. If they don't want to do it they don't have to, but for this specific Dare— it doesn't matter if they kiss or not. Skeppy won't be eating The Spicy Chicken Just because— Listen- Listen- Just because. What you're asking for is not it."

I hesitated but kissed bad quickly and after that he stood there motionless with a smile on his face— Karl asked permission if he could jump around in happiness and I quickly laughed before saying yes. "LET'S FUCKING GOOO WE ARE POPPING OFF CHAT WE ARE POPPING OFF-" Quackity's terrible British accent was interrupted by George "Shut up, YOU'RE AN IDIOT." Then the two got into a sarcastic fight which left chat laughing. Bad had ignored me after the Kiss, as soon as The stream session stopped Bad quickly ran to one of the rooms and locked himself in. I look at everyone, stupid taken people.

George and Dream were teasing each other just because they were dating— and they could. Karl, Sapnap and Quackity were all cuddling on the couch talking about their future lives. God fuck you people, I chased after bad and Knocked on the door. He had opened it and we talked about things, but he specifically avoided the subject of me kissing him. "Skeppy! Bad! Breakfast's Ready!"

"Come on bad, let's go" He stayed in bed. "I'll come soon!" I let it go figuring I was hungry and he'd come downstairs later.

[ MULTI POV - Bad ]

As soon as Skeppy had left, I took my phone out— my lockscreen still being a picture of Skeppy and I when He asked me out. I refused to talk to him about the kiss, Did he mean it? when he broke up with me he had told me he'd lost feelings for me. But I thought We loved each other equally-- until the break up. It was all too sudden and we were in paris, God I hate Paris. I stood up to go eat food with the others and stopped to look at myself in the mirror. I was a mess, My hair was all ruffled and there were bags under my--my eyes were puffy. I had been crying, I lock the door and take my hoodie off. I was fat.

...is that the reason he left me?

did he lose feelings because I was fat.