Regular day, nothing specially new. We were all gathered around in the room. Shin was helping Maja tune her guitar, Nana was sleeping on her boyfriends lap while Yasu and I looked at eachother. We both gave eachother a disapproving and a disappointing look. Maja had her eye on us, she felt that something was about to happen, the suspense was killing her.
Stressed out and anxious of the whole situation, I excused myself outside for a cigarette. I went outside the music hall and stood by the door. Pissed, crossed hands, lost in my thoughts, trying to comprehend the situation.
The situation was not as severe as I made it to be. Seriously, it was extremely childish of me, matter of fact. Yasu and I simply had a little quarrel, it was not serious but it was enough to make me mad. I put my hand into my pocket only to realise I already smoked all of my cigarettes and threw the empty pack away. I grunted and kicked the plasic bottle laying on the floor dramatically. At that moment I saw the hall door opening slowely with Yasus head bopping outside.
I gave him a look of '' I don't want you here, leave me alone'' while he gave me the ''I couldn't care less, I want to talk''. And so, he stepped outside and stood by me, looking out the yard acting amused by the slowly dying nature around. His hands in the pocket, trying to act chill ablut everything, pissed me off even more. I looked at the ground, at my boots, still arm-crossed.
He started: '' Can you stop now? ''
This was the last straw, the last string has been broken and I was about to scream.
'' You don't need to yell at me, I already heard enough of your voice''
I stopped myself from lashing out, speechless I looked up from the groud right at him. I could see my look startled him, but he did not react. I could just feel it.
'' Yasu, stop what? Explain what the fuck do you mean by that?! ''
Yasu rolled his eyes, his hands now out of the pockets, massaging his temples in annoyment.
'' I have a lot of patience with you, but sometimes you just overdo it. I don't know what to do with you anymore. Stop being mad at me for little things. ''
I knew this, I was not stupid or confused. I just did not want to admit I was in the wrong. That was a very stubborn behavior of me of course, but I expected him to be used to it. Although, I should not act like this towards him. I really do care about him.
'' That was very insulting. Are you trying to say you can't stand me anymore? ''
My eyes watered at the thought of that being the case. I just hurt my own feelings, with my own words which were not even towards me.
Yasu looked at me now, he saw me tearing up didn't he? That's embarrassing.
'' I'm not tired of you, I just don't understand why do you keep.. '' He paused to think of the right word '' why do you keep belittling me? ''
This sentence hit me like a truck, I didn't mean to belittle him nor to hurt him. I don't want to admit I'm in the wrong. Stop.
'' I am not belittling you'' the cry building up could be heard in my voice. I cleared my throat and spoke again '' Don't try to make it seem like I'm doing something I'm not''
I was trying to hard not to cry.
Yasu put his hands back into his pockets and faced me. That smirk on his face mad eme just want to slap him!!!
'' Are you doing to cry? ''
That really did it for me, I couldn't hold my tears anymore.
'' HOW DARE YOU UGABUGAUGABUGA'' I said while hitting him like a toddler.
He held me while I cried.
Yasu looked at the door and saw everyone spying on us, Maja annoyed at me for acting like this and others trying to hold their laughter in.
Yasu was trying so hard not to laugh.'' Nadja. ''
I stopped, he was basically holding me up like a toddler, I couldn't touch the ground.
Tears still rolling down my face, he put me down.
I hugged him tight '' I'm sorry Yasu. I'm such an idiot sometimes. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry for projecting my insecurities on you. ''
Yasu looked at me with a smile on his face.
'' Don't do that again, you scared me''
I sniffled as he held his hand on my cheek, wiping away my tears with his thumb.
I grabbed him and almost made him trip. We kissed as everyone awed at us.
Then we had steamy hot sex, I got preganant and became majka sestoro dece.
The end
Finn
