[KYUNGSOO x READER]
You hated Kyungsoo the moment he started dominating the world with his soothing voice and irresistible charms. Never in your entire life you have prayed so hard for Kyungsoo to just disappear, that's for your peace of mind. But t...
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One of the moments that makes life hits different is when your mind is all tangled up. When you are alone and confused, sad and angry, paired up with your teary eyes and cold night breeze.
No, you do not understand. I am fragile as a flower, that is what my mother would always compare me to. I am pleasant to look at but should be careful in everything.
And a flower withers when you tie the stem around itself. I am the flower, and my mind is the stem—tied in a knot and slowly, it is killing me.
Even when you untie it, things are not going to be the same for the flower. That describes my whole situation as of this very moment. No matter how many hours of talking will it take for me to be convinced that this is fine or things will be fine, I could not look at and live life the same way as before.
Because the knot in my stem happened.
"Y/n!"
That knot happened to be love.
And I can not take it anymore, I am sorry for hurting you...
One last glance over my shoulder and a tear escaped my eye. "Jongin..."
And gaze back on the water, to the miserable reflection of myself. I have fallen, but I can't love you when I feel sorry for the one I have to leave behind to be with you...
"Kyungsoo..."
In one swift move, my feet had left the ground; the whole world turn upside down. Air was hitting my face, the cold seems to help me familiarize to the feeling I am about to get myself into. Soon, sensation colder than the night breeze had enveloped my entire body.
I am out of my mind to feel glad, knowing that no one is going to save me. When dying, this is when reality sets in. Once your time comes and you are given the tiniest opportunity to ponder about your life and how you lived, no matter how great you have lived your life, you will always come to the conclusion that when it is your time—you can not ask someone to get you back or save you and they can not ask you to go back and fight for your life.
It is a losing battle.
And it is my choice to give up. Now I am going to die here, underwater. Alone and cold. No different from those who died in a much pleasant place unlike here.
I have always believed that love... is like drowning in the ocean.
Once you sink at the bottom, it will be suffocating. If you let yourself succumb to it, you will not be able to breathe. If you never try to swim above and keep yourself afloat, you will surely die.
But if you open your eyes, you will see the beauty underneath the surface of the water. The colorful corals, various creatures that you never thought you would see, the light rays shining from above the water. You will be struggling to breathe, but you will surely see something spectacular.
That is love.
You suffer, struggle, feel breathless, or even feel like dying once you let yourself drown in such phenomenon. However, it is beautiful. There will be heart-fluttering moments, new memories make, a reason to anticipate living everyday.
That is just my love, it is as suffocating as drowning.
But in my case, it was not suffocating yet beautiful...
More like, one feels suffocating and the other feels beautiful. And I can never figure out which is which, hence why I think the right thing to do is to end this all.
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That's Just My Love is purely work of fiction. Some names, characters, places, and incidents are product of the writer's imagination and used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events is entirely coincidental.
This story is mature-rated that's for the sensitive topic such as taking one's own life (WILL NOT be graphic but if triggering, please don't proceed); strong language and; 'little' explicit scenes.
I'm sorry if I have to approach you this way in my first Kyungsoo book. Don't worry though, everything's light in this one since it's first and new. I just don't want to be rude to our sensitive Strawberries, hence why the warning has to be made.
This is just short with less than 10 chapters.
This is highly inspired from 100 Days My Prince and Mr. Queen, but loose being a royal character. You and Kyungsoo are both normal human beings in a small village. No plot twists such as Kyungsoo being the crowned prince all along.
Since I'm not fond of learning history, I only took references from what I've seen in those dramas. So if someone's going to say something. This is FICTION, everything written in this book is FICTIONAL and is not meant to teach you the exact history of the time used for this story. It's not the main point of this book so please let it slide (｡•́︿•̀｡)
Aaaand just so you know... It's my birthday heehee :>
