𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑.𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦 𝑤 𝑠𝑏 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒.𝑆𝑏 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛𝑡 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑓 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐻𝑒 𝑝𝑢𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦.𝐿𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑖 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦.𝑊𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠.𝑭𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑵𝑫𝑺.. 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐼 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑.𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑑𝑖𝑑.
𝐼 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝐻𝑖𝑚.𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑑 ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒?𝐴 𝑌𝐸𝐴𝑅 𝐿𝐴𝑇𝐸𝑅
𝐼 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑢𝑝.𝐼 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑛.𝐼 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ.𝐼 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐷𝑖𝑑 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ?𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒.𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ.𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑠 𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑒.𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑚 ℎ𝑢𝑔𝑠.𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑖𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑚𝑎𝑧𝑖𝑛𝑔.𝐼 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑏𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑑𝑜.𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑚.He talks abt me to his friends.And to his story..I never knew he would love me as much as he said he would.But why now? Why after i find sb else?Why after all we've been through? Just why? 𝐼 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑖𝑚.𝐹𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝐹𝑎𝑐𝑒.
𝑊ℎ𝑦?
𝑖 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑
𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒.𝐻𝑒 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑖 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒.𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑡 𝑖𝑡.𝐻𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦.𝐻𝑜𝑙𝑦 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡.. ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒.𝐼 𝑐𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑖 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝.𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑖 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑖𝑚?
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