"Fuck you"
"What?"
"I SAID FUCK YOU! AND EVERYTHING THAT HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU!"
"I've done nothing but love you so don't you DARE shout at me like you pay the bills"
"DON'T YOU DARE ACT LIKE YOUR MONEY IS LOVE-"
pat pat pat patpat
Himei lifted her head from her knees only to see a soft paw moving up and down on her foot."G'morning Knox", the girl told her tabby cat with a smile, unraveling herself from fetal position. One by one she untucked her hands from behind her knees, pushing off of the bug infested mattress as support.
As she walked past her "bedroom" mirror she noticed how broken she looked. Her hair was speckled with dirt and . There were gray streaks of dried tears exploding down her brown cheeks. A bouquet of scars gifted by her nightmares."I look terrible", she thought, "I wanna to scream until my lungs burst"
Even though she was thinking this, you would never be able to tell. All of her feelings and emotions stay hidden behind a mask. Behind the smile glued to her face.
After giving Knox the last of their food, Himei silently left to find a summer job. She would usually unclutter houses for a few dollars an hour but this summer she was saving up for new school clothes. Sometimes her smile isn't enough. When she walks into school with the same soiled shirt three days in a row it diverts the attention from her smile. It makes people wonder if Himei is okay. And Himei wants nothing more than to be viewed as okay.
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Seething Tranquility
JugendliteraturFor all of the 17 years she's been alive, Himei told herself that showing emotion meant showing weakness, and showing weakness means you've lost. As she struggles to co-exist in a world that isn't made for her she finds out that tranquility isn't al...
