I can teach you. || Calum Hood

I love him, but I don't want to.

Aria’s POV:

I’ve come to realization with what happened with Cal and me. I can’t forgive him. I just can’t. I get out of the shower and get into my pjs. I walk into the kitchen. The pizza arrived early for once. I take the ice cream out of the freezer and open the pizza box. My laptop then goes off. I turn around and see I have a Skype call from my mom. Thank goodness. She always knows how to cheer me up. I open it and she says, “Hi, Aria. How have you been? I miss you.” “I miss you too, Mom. I might visit soon after I’m done with my dance assignment.” I smile back weakly. “Honey, is everything okay? You don’t seem yourself. Are you having trouble with that boy, urrh what’s his name, Calum? ”“I don’t know anymore. Mom, he hurt me so bad. I love him, but I don’t want to.” I said. “Aria, I know you always had a tough time growing up and that you had trouble with accepting people’s mistakes. You yourself always told me ‘You win or you learn’. The only advice I can give you… ‘Can you learn to accept the mistake, forgive him and move on or will you move on without him?’ Do you win or do you learn? Please let me know when you’re visiting home, okay? I love you and if that boy dares to break your heart again, I’ll send your dad all the way to Australia to kick the shit out of him!” she winks. I laugh, “I love you, Mom.” “Bye, sweetie. I love you too.” she then hangs up. I sigh.

Calum’s POV:

I’m on my way to Aria. I need to talk to her and at least try to apologize for everything that has happened. I walk up the stairs and hear her talking to someone. I think it’s her mom. I know eavesdropping is bad, but I hear what she says, “I don’t know anymore. Mom, he hurt me so bad. I love him, but I don’t want to.” Holy shit. She told her mom. This makes me feel even worse. I go blank for a while and then I hear the music, “I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart, but you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start...” She’s dancing to Arms by Christina Perri. I peep through the keyhole and she’s dancing. I’m not a pro at these things, but I can see the emotion that she dances with. She’s amazing, I don’t deserve her. “The world is coming down on me and I can’t find a reason to be loved…” She drops to the ground and starts to break down. It’s my fault she’s like this. I walk into the studio and she looks at me, tears running down her face. I get down on my knees and hold her. She puts her arms around me and allows me to console her. I lift her head up and look her straight in the eye, here goes, “Aria, I’m sorry. I know I hurt you, bad. I know I took something from you that you can never get back.” She sniffs her nose and I continue “I’m a dick, an asshole and I know I don’t deserve you. You mean so much to me and I let you slip through my fingers. What I’m trying to say is that I’m sorry and I know it’s going to take you time to forgive me, but I don’t care. I love you and I want you to be happy, even if it’s not with me.” She looks at me with an unreadable expression on her face.

Aria’s POV:

I want to forgive him. I love him, but what if I can’t make him happy? What if it happens again? What will happen if I say yes? I can see the tears in his eyes. “Cal, you hurt me so bad and I don’t want to forgive you, but I love you and it sucks. It sucks so badly.” I said. “I know. I know what it feels like.” he says. He starts to hug me and I know I want to forgive him…