Bella's heartache

Chapter 15

Bella pov

Sunlight entering the window woke me up. My dreams were plagued by Edward and my mistake of running he didn't mean it he was just frustrated. I have to go back. Getting off the couch I almost die when I trip over Jacob. He jumps up quickly looking for danger and he smiles when he sees me sprawled out on the floor.
Oh he thinks it's funny huh well laugh at this I sweep my legs under his knocking him on his butt. Landing hard on his butt his smile disappears and now I'm cackling like a hyena. He jumps up and reaches his hand out to help me up. Grabbing his hand he pulls me up and plants his lips on mine No No we can't do this Edward I love Edward. Pushing him away and backing up until I hit the wall. Jacob steps forward but I quickly command him to stop. His face looks so hurt I can admit he is cute but I love Edward even though I'm still young but we have a huge connection. He pleads for me to stop and talk to him but I ignore him and grab my backpack from the floor and race out the door. Running that's all I can think about now. I'm so tired between running yesterday and now today I don't think I can keep going. The buzzing in my pocket gives me the reason I need to stop. Pulling my phone out of my pocket was a feat when you can't see clearly. My head is so cloudy from the lack of oxygen in my lungs from running. "Bella , where are you?" Oh how I've missed this voice. " Edward I'm so sorry I ran please forgive me." My sobbing furthers my lack of oxygen. " Bella please where are you?" I'm 2 miles from the cornerstore on the reservation." His gasp was audible through the phone. "Bella continue walking until you get to the store and I'll meet you there okay." Why can't he pick me up from right here but before I could ask he hung up. Excited to go home I pick up my pace. As soon as I cross into the parking lot I'm engulfed in Edwards stone arms. Oh how I've missed him I see the rest of the family running towards us. Hug after hug I feel so bad for worrying them they have been there through thick and thin and I ran without a second glance. I don't deserve their love and forgiveness I will try my hardest to earn it again.

Edward
Bella still hasn't come home and I'm starting to worry. The rest of the family is still out hunting but they should be home soon. What will they think of me for losing her I'm supposed to love and protect her. I can't believe I was so stupid. She's gone through hell and I screamed at her just like her monster of a father did. The door shutting brings me out of my thoughts. I whip around hoping to see Bella but it's the rest of the family. They can feel my anxiety and worry. Alice rushes to my side and asks what wrong. I can't look them in the eye as I explain what happened. Esme and rose are screaming at me when I pull out my phone and call Bella again. It rings twice when she picks up. I ask her where she's at and she says 2 miles from the corner store on the reservation. I gasp shit we can't enter their territory. I tell her to keep walking and well meet her then I hang up. As soon as I press end on the call everyone jumps in a car except me. I'm running there I take off and the family follows of course I'm hidden from sight. The closer I get the faster I run and before I know it I'm at the edge of the parking lot. She's still not here and neither is the rest of the family. Just when Bella walks into my line of sight I take off at a human speed and engulf her in a huge hug. The family who just pulled in follows and Bella's passed around for hug after hug. I will never hurt her again. We all get in the cars with Bella sitting on my lap she quickly falls asleep.
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