Questioning my gender

Part one- i think i may be trans

I think I may be trans

Never thought I'd say that, and I'm not even too confident in saying it now. I like lists, they make things neat and tidy and everything makes sense like that, so, here are my two lists.

Reasons I think I may be trans

I have dysphoria about my face, chest and not having a 🍆

I like being called handsome, good boy, pretty boy, etc etc

I relate to so many trans things

I wanna have short fluffy brown masculine hair

I wanna be Robin, or Rowan/Rowen

I do the pulling on your hoodie or t shirt to hide them tiddies

I wear sports bras cus they 'are more comfy' in reality it's because they make me flatter

I get extremely upset- like reeeaaalllyyyy upset at ppl being transphobic, more than a cis girl who has one trans friend that they're not even close with should

I hate being called that. Cis girl. Ew

And woman. Cis woman? Get it out of my face

I wanna get bottom surgery

I've found myself being grossed out by how I'm sitting because it's too "feminine" (like sitting cross legged or with my feet to close or whatever)

I wanna like boys the way boys do

I wanna like girls the way boys do but not in a "Jason🥶🥵😎 #superstraight" way

I took a bunch of tests and quizzes and they all said I was prolly trans

I wanna be flat so fucking badly

Now the second list

Reasons I think this is bullshit, I'm not trans

I don't mind she/her

These feelings came so sudden

I don't have as much dysphoria as other ppl

I find it hard to imagine myself as a boy

I feel like a liar when I think trans things like "ew that was so feminine" and stuff

I've never felt uncomfy about being a girl before

I wanna love girls the way girls do

I like dresses and looking like a pretty princess

I like feminine compliments, beautiful, princess, sweetheart etc etc

Idk man I just feel like im making this up for attention, but like attention from who? My one follower who won't even read this? (probably) (unless they are) (if so hi (: <3 ) ?

Ok if anyone read this GIVE ME YOUR GENUINE HONEST THOUGHTS, PLEASE?!