TEEN SPIRIT

are we too young for this - @ksanqso

Written by: ksanqso

YANG JUNGWON - ENHYPEN

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TW: Mild swearing 

"JIA!!"

"JIA!! WAKE UP IT'S 6:30 ALREADY"

I woke up today again to my mom's screaming.

Another same day. I thought

I wash up , put my uniform on, have breakfast and walk towards school as always .

I take a seat on my desk and put my head down in the hope of getting some rest

"Jia, did you complete the homework?!" Sumin one of my classmates ask me

"W-what homework!??"

"Maths, we had to do sum no. 8,9,10 today" she replied

"But Mr Kim hasn't taught us yet?"

"He taught us sum no. 7 , 8;9;10 use the same method that is why they were given as homework" she said sighing.

I knew i fucked up today. Mr Kim is really strict. He would never spare anyone. I guess I am ready for minus points today.

"Hey Jia" My best friend Jungwon waved me hi as he sat down on his seat

"Hi Jungwon" I replied

Ring

Maths period ended and yes I got minus points.

Next period was Science and I hope it's better than maths.

Science teacher comes in and starts teaching and as always I pay attention.

I won't call myself a nerd but yes I do study a lot.

My family doesn't really pressure me but since i am the oldest in my family. I think I have to exceed their expectations.I have so much on my plate right now.

"Guys we have an exam coming up next week so study hard" the teacher said before leaving the class.

After all the classes were over I headed to my tutions.

I sit on my bench at the classes exhausted.

I don't really feel good.

I feel down today.

The classes ended at 9 pm and I haven't eaten anything since lunch.

I don't really feel like eating.

I head home, had some dinner since my mom insisted

I go to the room to do the "extra" maths homework I got today .

Finally i relax and go to bed. But I can't sleep because negative thoughts consume me.

I take a deep breath and try to sleep .

Well i cry myself to sleep everyday i do it again .

Next day I woke up . Nothing's different other than the date and it's Saturday.

I walk to my tutions. Being a senior in high school is indeed difficult.

"Jia wanna hangout later?" Jungwon asks me as i reach to the classes and settle down

"No i have a lot to study" i said sighing

"Bro chill, let's not stress out" he said and I thought for a bit .

"No, I have to pass on this one," I said , shaking my head.

"Fine" he said and went back to his seat

After the classes ended I returned home.

I thought of what Jungwon said and decided to chill for a bit.

I opened my laptop to watch some drama series.I decided to watch twenty one twenty five.

A scene where he is fighting with her mom for the sake of her dreams comes up. I sigh as it relates to me.

A knock on my door and my mum enters my room.

"Jia, I told you to study and you watch dramas. You never help me in the house , full day you keep on sitting on that bed and keep being lazy. Get up for a bit " she nagged with a frown on her face.

"Mom i am exhausted today let me rest"

" What are you even exhausted of you are young and you don't work like me 24/7 " she said more like yelled

" Do you even know what i go through?Whenever i come to you , you shake me away " i asked and tears were already flowing out my eyes.

"I never do that," my mum said.

"You always do that"

I am done. I stormed out of my house. I don't even know where I am going but I need a break from everything in this world.

I was running with tears in my eyes when I collided with a hard back.

"Jia, why are you crying?!?"

"Jungwon-ah" i said wiping my tears

"Come with me" he said dragging me away from the street

We arrived at some old building. Is he kidnapping me ?

"I am not kidnapping you so calm down"

How did he know what i was thinking

"I am mind reader"

Wtf

We arrived at the rooftop. It's really pretty and... peaceful . He digs through his bag and removes some banana milk.

"Here" he offers me the milk and I accept it.

"Now tell me what happened. Are you okay?"

"Yeah just some stress" i answer

"Jia, you can talk to me. I am here for you always" he said with a soft smile.

That smile. Those words .

I broke down into tears once more.

He embraced me carefully and rubbed circles on my back

"No-one really understands me. I need a break from this world. I study hard to meet expectations but no-one appreciates it. I feel I am too lazy, no-one deserves me." i ranted

"You don't deserve the world. You are the most hardworking person I have ever seen" he replied.

"i have negative thoughts every day I don't know how to escape from them"

"try distracting yourself "

"I tried . i watched a drama today but even that reminds me of my struggles"

"Can I ask you for a favour?"

"Yes"

"Tell me that i have done well today"

"You always do well. Don't let the world hurt you" he replied. It comforted me

We sat there in silence . I decided to break it.

"Jungwon-ah " I said and he hummed in response.

"Are we too young for this?"i asked

"YES"