Another POV

The feeling

(I can't remember how far back but I remember realizing that everyone has their own perspective on life. Everyone sees everything different and everyone can take things differently in my life it's been up and down; but I'm gonna quit talking about myself and go on with the story.) Time passes so slowly yet fast, everyone that I have met in my life has either said "stop growing so fast" in a sarcastic Tone or "don't be in a rush to grow up". The concept of time feels almost wrong to me all my life it has moved so fast but now (at age 12 almost 13) I can say it almost feels slow like the days take weeks but once the day is over it is like the whole day was merely a second. The whole spand of the day starts to rush right into my head. Today it was the same hours felt like years and now as I am writing this it feels as if the day was just a second; but today there was this feeling, I don't exactly know what this feeling was. The feeling felt like an out of body experience, and it's not Dejavu I know that feeling but when I was looking beside me at my friend I felt weird almost an uneasy feeling, it's not love of course I know how that feels like too. 

As I lay in my bed now my mind can't help but to wonder "was I being too loud, was I being too friendly". For the whole time that I have joined my present school I have been told that I am too nice or I have been miss gendered. I have also been told you act like a girl or someone pointing out that I have a binder on. Ever sense a little while ago I didn't pay much mind to the fact that my friends point out my binder, although recently I have thought about it a lot more. The thought of people not doing or even doing something different because of the gender I was assigned at birth gives me this uneasy feeling.

( I hope you enjoyed the first chapter I will write more tomorrow if anything out of the ordinary happens I hope you have a good night/day<3)