BLINDSPOT ONE-SHOTS (REPATA, JELLER & THE THROUPLE)

I'M CAUGHT (EMSEMBLE)

Jane, Patterson, Allie, and Zapata have beers (and wine) at the Wellers
(Kurt, Reade, and Borden went to a Knicks game). The women discuss
their men and how they came to decide to be a couple.

~DRABBLES~

Jane Weller on her attraction and subsequent marriage to Kurt:

"In the beginning, the best way to describe it is that I felt like I was drunk, on a mission that never ended...I felt like nothing could stop me from being with my loved and nothing COULD stop me.

The drunk feeling was both because of my clumsiness and general nervousness around him. I couldn't get my HOLSTER in the right position, no matter how many times he got on me about it; he must have been feeling ME too because one evening I mentioned I had a date, and 'he went off' about the holster, that he wouldn't take me out in the field again if I couldn't get it right... and I almost said 'What about ZAPATA, and that butt-forward cross draw!' but I froze, and I RAN
OUT...I was furious.. and confused...I mean dating your SUPERVISOR!"-

Patterson snickers, pointing at Zapata, who flicks a bottle cap at Jane, hitting her on the left boob. "Easy!" she warns. "I could consider that throwing a teammate under the bus."

" I ALMOST SAID THAT he...he had me twisted all around...anyway, as time passed that attraction evolved into a mature type of feeling for him not quite love, but getting there. I got semi-used to being around him, in close quarters. I was much more comfortable being alone with him. I looked FORWARD to him cooking dinner for just me and him, to finding out more about him. The more I knew, the more I wanted to know .

Zapata

"I knew that I wanted to be with Reade on day one. We clicked immediately, and we built an incredible friendship...and I WANTED HIM THAT WHOLE TIME. Now that we're together, it hasn't been all roses, but he accepts me, warts and all He makes me better, to want to be better".

"How about YOU, P?"

"Borden SEES ME. He listens to me, that old cliché about the therapist and the patient, right? I used to say to myself 'so pathetic', but now I see it. And it goes beyond looks..."

"He is goddamn GORGEOUS, though!", said Zapata.

"YEAH he IS!" From Jane.

A slightly tipsy Tasha mused: "I ran away from Reade for far too long. Borden helped me to finally realize that learning to love myself had to be the first step in accepting HIS love...I got rid of all of the negative influences; got 'clean' of the gambling and the one-night randos.
Also, I'd been told from such an early age, that I'm no good-that I'd never be any good, and I believed that...I decided fuck it, if I'm as rotten as I've been told then I'll exceed expectations."

Patterson said quietly "Oh, Tasha....that's...your Mom did that?"

"My dad leaving broke her mentally. To dull the pain she turned to liquor, then drugs and...MEN... she needed someone to blame and I was it. My brothers and I were finally taken away from her and we lived with my abuelos-my grandparents. They did their best but they were what?...in their sixties by the time I became an out-of-control teenager. I left them at 18 and joined NYPD. By the time Kurt recruited me I was personally: by that time I owed about 80 grand in gambling debts, screwing around within and outside the precinct-I lost a baby fathered by a married detective-and drinking so much I was blacking out at times." She goes quiet for a while, and in that interim, her friends move closer: all offer hugs and kisses, and wait for her to compose herself.

"Professionally I had been elevated to Detective squad and graduated from NYU. The 19th was more like BABYLON than a police precinct. Corruption, trafficking, mental, physical and sexual abuse civilians, cadets and...females ON THE FORCE." Jane gasped audibly. Allie Knight.
mutter 'MOTHER-fuckers' ." Typical Allie...

Jane

"By the time I met Kurt, I knew that the FBI was my 'lifeline' out of there. Looking back, I was either gonna DIE or be swallowed up by the mire. I owe Kurt so much. I don't come here I don't meet READE who also saved my life: showing me that I have value, that I deserve love", Jane says.

Jane adds " You all know I'm an orphan. You all have shown me that that family doesn't necessarily mean blood...a family can be created the way that we have. Some accepted me right away...OTHERS-she looks directly at Zapata, who mimes a pistol at her-not so much...now, though we've proven that there is very little that we won't do for one another. I had a hard time allowing anyone past my defenses because of the abuse and neglect Roman and I endured at the orphanage in South Africa. This family that we've built, and Kurt especially built a new foundation and build a NERW HOUSE. And live there with Kurt, and the children I hope to give him which, by the way, I never really wanted or considered before...you and of course Kurt.

"Overcoming Ellen Briggs' brain-washing, the poisonous teachings and 'take down the American government' dogma we were force-fed...that was maybe worse than the physical challenges. How we survived that I'll never know. What I DO KNOW is that without the team's confidence in me, your trust and belief...even after I turned into 'Remi' saved ME."