Beomgyu-centric One-shots

•Soogyu•

Angst
Tw: Death, Suicide
(forgot something)

Soobin is on a rooftop of a high building, sitting on the edge with his legs dangling. "I love it here Beomgyu. The sky looks so pretty here, I hope you stay so we can stare at the sky together." He said looking at his side to see a boy. Beomgyu, the love of his life. The boy looked at him and smiled sweetly but bitterly. Tears are starting to form on the sides of the boys eyes. "Beomgyu?" Soobin tilts his head to the side, why is his gyu sad? "Soobin, please let go of me." That's the only words Beomgyu uttered.

"Soobin, I'm dead. I'm not with you in this world." Beomgyu cried looking at his boyfriend with tears in his eyes. Soobin couldn't process what he was saying. "W-what? No gyu, that's a lie, this is a prank right? It's not funny." Soobin stood up from his seat and jumped down to the floor of the building they were in. "Soobin..." Beomgyu whispered "Remember it for me please, don't try to forget it." Beomgyu begged. "It's not your fault Binnie—" "SHUT UP!" Soobin shouted, "SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP—" Beomgyu hugged him.

"You're not dead gyu... you're not dead..." Soobin cried, he looked at Beomgyu's deep brown eyes.

-flashback-

Soobin and Beomgyu were always happy, their relationship was perfect, and nothing could destroy that. They loved eachother deeply. But Beomgyu wasn't happy, with Soobin he was, but whenever his boyfriend wasn't there, everything turns dull. Beomgyu hated his home, his parents always fought, sometimes their anger was put on him resulting in bruises and sometimes blood. He was called a disgrace, a mistake, a good for nothing. He hid this from Soobin, but now he just couldn't hide it. He rushed to Soobin's house only to find a girl crying. "BUT SOOBIN, IM HERE. WHY CANT YOU SEE ME? WHAT EVEN IS WITH BEOMGYU THAT I DONT HAVE?"

"Chaera I'm sorry but I really don't love you. Please don't say those things about Beomgyu because you don't know him like I know him." Soobin got slapped across his face, shocked Beomgyu ran to him, "Soobin? Are you alright? Oh gosh—" "YOU BITCH YOU TOOK SOOBIN AWAY FROM ME!" Chaera grabbed his hair while Beomgyu tried to get away from her. Soobin pushed her away and took Beomgyu, "STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM US, I TOLD YOU KINDLY BUT YOU TOOK IT TOO FAR CHAERA. DONT HURT BEOMGYU."

After that day Beomgyu was bullied but kept it from Soobin. He didn't want to burden the older. One day they took it too far and pushed him off the stairs, going home with a broken rib probably. He got beat up, again, after going home late. Everything was too much, he ran limping to a rooftop of a random building, crying.

"S-soobin..." he called him, "BEOMGYU? Hello? Where are you?—"
"I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't take this anymore..."
"Beomgyu? Why? Please talk to me..."
"I'm sorry for keeping this from you... I've been abused by my parents for a long time now. They've beat me up for every little mistake, people have been hating me for being with you. They pushed me off the stairs today, telling me to die, got a broken rib but got worse when I went home late. It hurts too much, I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I'm gonna leave you, I love you, you know that right? Just know that it's not your fault, please don't blame yourself. I'm always going to be beside you, I'm not leaving you. Please move on without me. I love you so much Choi Soobin—"

"BEOMGYU" a voice behind him shouted, shocked Beomgyu turned around to see the love of his life, Soobin crying. "BEOMGYU PLEASE LETS WORK THIS OUT! YOU DONT HAVE TO DO THIS! DONT LEAVE ME!" Soobin begged

"Please don't come near me, I'm sorry Soobinie hyung. But it hurts too much already, I've been a burden to everyone, please leave me alone to be happy..." Beomgyu took a deep breath and let himself fall from the building

"BEOMGYU!" Soobin ran but was too late.

-flashback ends-

"No..." Soobin says weakly. "Please, Soobin, let me go and heal... I love you, it pains me seeing you like this." Soobin remembers everything, the face of Beomgyu when he fell, the blood, the regret, everything.

"Choi Soobin, please come with us back to the facilty. It's the fifth year, you snuck out again, the same day he died. Please, Soobin we're here to help you." A voice appears "Hyung, he's gone! He was just here a second ago!" Soobin stands up in a panic. "You've been hallucinating again, he's gone Soobin. Please accept that."

"Yeonjun hyung... He's gone..." Soobin grabs on Yeonjun's shoulder "Beomgyu wouldn't like you in this state Soob, get some help please." Yeonjun clasped their hands together. He brings Soobin back.

Choi Soobin
25 years old
Mental Disorder(s): Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Bereavement Hallucination by Persistent Complex Bereavement Disorder
Reason: A death of a loved one, Choi Beomgyu