Dear Peter,
I am tired. Tired of school. Tired of being perfect for everybody. Tired of everything. Tired of life. You don't know what it's like. Here there are standards, expectations, deadlines. Here people judge your appearance. Sometimes these things are good, they give responsibility and ownership. I had looked forward to this day – looked forward to the future. To growing up. Now I am not so sure. I'm hesitating. There are so many decisions. Already I can't decide, how could I survive any more choices? Still, I know you don't understand. You don't need to; you have the easy way out. Why can't I be like you? Try to understand. There is responsibility; you have things to do and take care of. There are decisions about everything; you have to make choices about school studies, sports, friends, college, future...! There are standards; people expect certain things from you appearance, attitude, grades. This may not sound like a whole lot to you, but it is quite a lot. After a while you can feel the pressure of all this weighing you down. No matter how hard you try, it seems your spirits get pulled down where their previous state is irretrievable. My spirits are down right now. Please, please help me come back up. Please take me to Neverland.
Sincerely waiting,
B. L.
